Markjin One-shots

Five Walls-Wall #3

You guys are so spoiled this is such a long chapter(longer than I was planning)

I feel like the edits are getting worse every chapter XD

"Sometimes you have to see them cry to see how beautiful their smile is"
Miyu-Rin -2k16
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Bargaining.

Jinyoung

Rolling over for the hundredth time I stared at the wall in front of me, trying to block out the cries I was hearing. Only a few days after the whole fight episode Mark had started crying at night. It would be silent for about an hour after I would say good night and walk into my room to sleep then the sobs and screams would start. I knew it was wrong of me to just listen while he was literally crying his eyes out in his room alone, but the one time I had tried to comfort him he told me to never bother him again.

Finally having enough with just listening to him suffer I threw my blankets off of me and quietly made my way to the door of Mark's room. Raising my hand to knock I stopped mid way and just listened. My lips pressed together in a mix of anger and sadness as I just listened helplessly to his sobs and pleas,"I'd do anything!" I heard him cry out, a part of me knew this was my fault. That because I couldn't- no wouldn't comfort him, I wasn't helping him at all. Closing my eyes I placed my back gently against his bedroom door and slid to the ground, slightly shaking.

Why won't he just let me help him? Wouldn't it be easier if he didn't have to fight it alone? Mark's cries became background noise as I fell into my thoughts. Why can't I help him? Maybe tomorrow, maybe tomorrow it will all be okay. Who wants to wait for tomorrow? Standing up I knocked on his door before I could change my mind. The cries quickly changed into muffled sniffles,"Go aw-away Jinyoung! Didn't I tell you to g-go away?" Grabbing the door nob I opened the door entered his room,"You think I'm just gonna listen to you cry yourself to sleep every night? I care about you wether you like it or not."

Walking over to his bed I sat myself beside Mark, who was hiding behind his pillow,"Mark......look at me." I placed a hand on the pillow he was hiding with, gently taking it from him. The tear stained face I was greeted with made my lips frown and my chin quiver. Mark's eyes widened when he saw me,"Oh no don't cry! I'm sorry!" Getting up from his laying position Mark hugged me, tightly. I returned the hug and for what seemed like forever we just sat there, on his bed, hugging.

Mark's whisper broke the silence,"Why couldn't it have been me?" I froze out of shock,"How could you say that?" Mark shook, my shoulder starting to be soaked from his tears,"Mark no one wants you to die! I don't want you to die and you shouldn't even for a second think of dying in her place!" Mark whimpered and hugged me tighter,"No one wanted her to die either Jinyoung! I would do anything for her to live again, anything! Can't I do something?"

  Moving Mark up I silently got to my knees, lowering us onto the bed so I was hovering over him. Mark opened his eyes to look up at me,"Wh-what are you doing?" Smiling at him I brought my hand up to move some of his hair out of his face,"Mark Yi en Tuan you can't change the past. It hurts, really bad, but you can't change it okay? Stop blaming yourself! Every time you blame yourself for her death I will do something like this." Leaning down I made sure our noses were touching while I stared into his eyes,"You deserve happiness Mark. I'm going to make sure you get it."

   Smirking at the shocked expression on his face I fell next to him on his bed and wrapped my arms around his waist,"Now let's sleep." Pulling him close I smiled, taking in the relieving feeling of having Mark so close. That night Mark slept so calmly it scared me, only slightly. He didn't cry once.