When Jaebum walked into Youngjae's apartment, the brunette tried to appear as little as possible. Jaebum made himself at home, going to the kitchen to take a glass of water. But it was not for him, it was for Youngjae.
"Tell me everything."
Youngjae didn't notice when he saw him two days ago but Jaebum got taller and more muscular. He seemed a lot stronger than before and Youngjae couldn't help but think about his girlfriend who was probably really happy to have a boyfriend who could protect her.
"What are you thinking about?"
"Nothing ?"
"That I'm hot? "
"What?" Youngjae yelled, surprised, "No!
"No?"
"I mean yes but-"
"So it's a yes." Jaebum smirked.
"Shut up, why did you come here if it was to brag about your body?"
"You seemed tense. I tried my best to make things better."
"I don't need that and I don't need you."
"Are you sure?"
"No."
Youngjae sat on the couch and gestured Jaebum to do the same. He wasn't sure if he should ask about Jaebum's new life, knowing that it would hurt him and they weren't that close anyway. In the end, Jaebum broke the silence.
"Let's be honest. Tell me everything and I'll tell you everything you want to hear."
"You first."
"No. If I answer, you'll never tell me about your suicide."
"Fine. I'm lonely, end of the story."
"I don't believe you."
Youngjae knew nobody would believe him if he didn't have a proper excuse. But truth was, he really tried to kill himself because he was alone, lonely and bored.
"Why did you come here ?" he asked quietly.
"To see you."
He felt his heart miss a beat. How could he say that after such a long time?
"I don't believe you."
"Why did you try to commit suicide?"
"I was bored."
"I don't believe you."
"I really was ! I wasn't busy that day and didn't know what to do ! How is your life now ?"
"Good."
Of course it was. From what he heard these past months, Jaebum had been living a fantastic and exciting life.
"I believe you and I would like to throw up to show you how much it disgusts me."
'Thanks. It's nice to see someone important to me being disgusted by my happiness."
"Important to you? You're kidding, right?"
"Why did you try to kill yourself ?'
"Don't ignore me."
"Why did you try to kill yourself?" asked Jaebum again.
Youngjae clenched his teeth and tried to throw away his anger.
"Soyu's dead."
"I believe you."
"What's your girlfriend's name ?"
"Minah."
"Is she hot ?"
"Youngjae."
"I'm just asking."
"I won't answer."
"So she is."
"Maybe. Why did you try to kill yourself ?"
"My grandma's dead."
Jaebum lowered his head to stare at the floor, wanting to avoid Youngjae's gaze. He didn't know. She had always been nice to Jaebum, always helped him if he needed someone's help since he was mostly by himself. But in return, all he did was leave and break her grandson's heart.
"I believe you and I'm sorry."
"Are you... planning on marrying her ?"
The way Youngjae acted all hesitant and sad when asking his question made Jaebum's heart sank. It was clear he wanted to hear everything but a yes.
"No." Jaebum stated.
"Why ?"
"I want to wait a little more before getting married to see what happens. Why did you try to kill yourself ?"
"Soyu's dead, grandma's dead, I have no friend nor family. Making a living is hard too."
"I believe you."
"Why didn't you come to see me when you came back here last year?"
"I couldn't."
"I don't believe you."
Jaebum sighs. He knew too well what it meant to see someone come back but not for you.
"Why did you try to kill yourself ?"
"My boss is abusive. H-he touched me too."
"What?" yelled suddenly Jaebum as he stood up, "I'll murder that bastard. Tell me where he lives, I swear to god I'm going to kill him !"
"We're not finished, sit down."
Jaebum lifted an eyebrow but obeyed.
"Do you like your life as it is now ?" asked Youngjae.
"I'm missing something. Why did you try to kill yourself ?"
"Because I love you."
