The Matrimony 4 (Completed)

Chapter 20-What Is Love

I Spent Three Days And Three Nights Debating On Whether I Should Tell August I Cheated Or Not

I Know August And I Know That If I Tell Him He I Sleep With Another Man He Would Never Forgive Me For It…Even Though I May Of Forgave Him A Million Times Before For Sleeping With Other Chicks

He Cheated On Me Countless Time...I Had One Night  Of Pleasure With Another Man And To August Thats Just Like Me Having Twelve Dicks In My Mouth

Guilt Had Became Apart Of Me Apart Of Our Marriage Apart Of Our Home…It Was Eating Me Alive I Was Literally Dying Of Guilt

Watching Him Playing With Kids And Hearing Them Laugh At Him Being Goofy Make Me Regret That Whole Night With Rell

I Didn't Wanna Lose My Family I Didn't Wanna Lose August

I Was Laying On The Couch As August Played With The Boys On The Floor

He Was Wrestling Boys Just Being Boys

Thinkin To Myself How Much I Love Em…Even Though August Has His Ways I Still Love Him And I Think That Maybe I Forgot For A Moment How Much I Love Him

Its Just That Its Been Such A Crazy Year For Me And August

This Marriage Is Always Up And Down...Rell Was Like A Vacation From What I Been Going Through

Rell Ease My Mind And Made Me Smile And Brought Me Joy...I Still Feel His Lips On Mines And Hear His Voice Ringing In My Head

I Haven't Talked To Him In 3 Days...Felt More Like Years Than Days

But We Both Knew That We Crossed The Line We Both Knew We Couldn't Be Together And We Both Knew That I Was In Love With August

I Fucked Up And I Hated Keeping Secrets From My Husband

I Literally Wanted To Just Scream Out "I Cheated" But I Couldn't Force Those Words To Come Out

I Felt Like Shit But I Just Have To Tell Him

"August I Gotta Tell You Something"I Said Building The Nerve To Confess To Him

My Heart Started Pounding..And I Could Feel My Hands Began To Sweat

I Had A Funny Feeling In My Stomach And I Felt Like I Was Going Vomit The Truth Out

"Whats Up"He Said As He Paused Playing With The Boys

And All Three Of Em Look Up At Me And I Felt Like The Worst Person Ever Born

"I.…"I Said Stumbling On My Words

"Ya What"He Asked Me With That Nola Accent

And Before I Could Pour Those Words Out

I Gotta A Phone Call I Picked Up That Phone

And It Was Probably One Of The Worst Calls I've Gotten In My Life

I Gotta Call About A 23 Year Old Pregnant Woman

She Had Been Beated And Stabbed To Death By Her Boyfriend

And I Knew I Just Knew That It Was Vanessa I Felt In My Soul Just Like You Can Feel December Cold  Wind On Your Bare Face

I Was Asked To Come Down To The Hospital And View The Body And Confirm That Its Was Vannessa

And I Immediately Rush Out The House While August Stayed With The Boys

I Could Barely Drive Through All This Rain And These Tears In My Eyes Wasn't Making It No Better

I Was So Shooken Up.…