The Matrimony 4 (Completed)

Chapter Three-Making Good Out Of Bad

I Called My Father Over Just To Talk To Him About How I Been Feeling About Him But He Never Showed Up

And Now Im Feeling Like That 12 Year Old Girl Searching For Father All Over Again

I Just Wanna Know Why Is He Distancing Himself From Me At A Time When I Probably Needed Him The Most

But He Wasn't Talking To Me And I Couldn't Get In Touch With Him With Everything Else Thats Going On I Really Don't Need My Own Father To Turn His Back On Me

Toya Was Over And We Were Sitting At My Kitchen Table

And She Was Talking And I Was Just Pissed About My Father,And Pissed About Having Cancer I Was So Frustrated

"And Now His Ass On Child Support For Good...With His Lying Cheating Ass Thats What He Get Told You He Fucked Over The Wrong Bitch"She Said As She Smiled

And Than I Randomly Pulled Off The Hair Scarf I Had Tied Around My Hair

"Oh."Toya Said As She Look And Saw I Had No Hair In The Middle Of My Head

"I Need You Cut The Rest Off"I Said

"What..No...Im Not Gonna Do That"Toya Said Shaking Her Head

"Why Not Your My Friend Aren't You....So Just Cut It Off I Want It All Gone"I Said

"Aziah Chill....You Being Real Extra"Toya Said

"Im Not Being Extra I Just Wanna Cut My Hair Off Before This Chemo Finish Making Me Bald...I Wanna Have Atleast One Choice In This Disaster...And Im Choosing To Get Rid Of My Hair"I Said

"Well Im Not Gon Be The One Cutting It"She Said As She Folded Her Arms

I Stood Up And Said "You Know What... Fine I Will Do It My Self What Kinda Of Friend Are You"

I Pulled The Scissors Out Of The Kitchen Draw

"Okay...If Its What You Want I Will Do It"She Said As She Stood Up

"Give Me The Scissors..."She Said

I Placed The Scissors In Her Hand And Said "Thank You"

I Sat Down In A Chair And She Said "I Understand Your Just Frustrated Right Now But You Have To Stop Being So Angry At The World"

As She Grabbed A Piece Of My Hair And Cut It Off And I Watched My Beautiful Long Black Slick Hair Fall To The Floor

I Placed My Hand Over My Face And Just Burst Outta Tears

I Couldn't Help But To Be Angry Look At All Thats Happen To Me Everytime I Try To Be Positive This Cancer Brings Me Down Again

After Toya Was Finish Cutting My Hair I Was Staring At The Mirror At My Bald Head

"I Can't Believe You Made Me Do This"She Said

"Toya It Was Gon Fall Out Eventually.. I Can't Wait Untill This Is All Over With I Just Wanna Be Normal Again"I Said

I Tied The Hair Scarf Around My Head

That Night When My Husband Got Home He Smiled At Me And Said "The Nation Go Crazy For The Boy"

I Pulled The Scarf Off My Head Once Again Revealing To Him My Completely Bald Head

Tears Fell From Eyes Because I Just Feel So Ugly And So Worthless

He Walked Over To Me And He Kissed My Bald Head And I Just Cry Even Harder As He Whispered "Your Beautiful"