Scars (Harry Styles fanfic)

8. One chance at love

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SUMMER POV

4 WEEKS LATER

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Its so strange... I can hear things but I cant feel them or I cant talk or move.Its like im paralyzed. I know who has been visiting me and I know they have cried. I hope I dont wake up. I know Harry has been here and that he knows about my cuts. I dont know if he knows about James and my father yet but I hope not.I dont want sympathy. I tried to talk.scream.touch.feel.cry.I cant even open my eyes. It is horrible. But now I have time to think about Harry. I know I like him but I am not going to get hurt again. James has ruined my life and now everything is hard. I have nightmares every night about him and I am so sick of it! I dont know how long I have been here.All I know is that Harry has never left my,side. I also know he barley slept and he and his band had to cancel concerts so he was with me. At this moment Harry had my hand in his and then says "Summer I dont know if you can hear me but I just need you to know I love you.I love you so damn much it hurts. Everytime I look at you and all these robots keeping you alive I just.....die. Its killing me to see the woman I love sitting like this.Dead.I knpw your alive.But I also know that you need to wake up.I love you Summer and I have never meant those words more in my life.Its crazy because you think I dont know any think about you....but Jess told me things about you.She tolde about your dad and mum. Im so sorry about your dad.Your mum seems like a bitch. I kn knw I dont deserve you but I love you more than words can begin to explain. I wish it was.....me and not you." He sobs. What the hell?!?!? He loves me.I love him.Did I just really think that? I know I have feelings for him.But love.Okay I need to stop hiding it.I love Harry Styles. I use all of the strength I had and tried to mov move but I couldnt. "Summer please do somthing. Please." He begs and my already broken heart shatters. I try again an this time I can do somthing. I squeezed his hand. "Oh my god!!! Summer!!!!" "NURSE" Harry yells and I finally opend my eyes and get blinded my the bright lights. A nurse came rushing in witg Jess and I remember Niall from those pictures ai saw. "I will go get the doctor. " The nurse said happily. I took this time to look at Harry. He had dark rings under his eyes and looked sick. "Harry are you ok?" I croak "Ehm yeah Summer Icam fine." I look at Niall ang give him a is-he-really-okay- look and he shook his head lightly. I then look at Jess and she look almost as bad as Harry does. Knowing Jessica she probably blamed herself for tge whole thing. It was my fault.Im the one who should have been stronger. But it is hard to be strong all of the time. Somtimes you just cant take it anymore and you break.Harry runs his fingers through his hair and I see faded lines in his wrist. He used to cut? "Can you guys give us a moment alone please?" I ask "Ehm sure Summy I love you!" Jess says her voice breaking at the end. Her and Niall walk out of the room and I look at Harry who looks a little green and pale. "Harry" I say.no,response "Harry" I say a little louder and his head snaps to my bed. "I know your not okay. When is the last time you have eaten?" I asked "Three days" his raspy hoarse voice Aaawww. "Harry can I ask you somthing?" I ask "You just did." he smiles a small fake smile "I am serious Harry." I,snap "Sure Summer" he replies "Can I see your arms?" I ask "W-why?" he stutters nervously I dont respond I just snatch his arms and look at his scars. Why? When? I start to cry and this time I allow the tears to fall. "Why Harry?" I whimper "Im so sorry Summer" He says looking his teary forest eyes into mine. In that moment I knew that I loved him. I have to give him a chance. "I love you too Harry" I said. He looked at me as if he didnt hear me correctly. "really?!" He asked suprised "Really Harry I mean it.....and if you want to know a-about my p-past I will tell you." I stutter "You dont have to tell me if you dont want to babe" He says but I can tell he wants to know "No I wanna tell you...it will feel better ti get it iff my chest...When I was 15 my father died in a car wreck and my 'mother' abused me untill she left ne when I was 16. Then I met this boy named James. I thought I loved him but I didnt. We moved in together and he r-raped me and abused me. Thats when I started cutting myself. It took the pain away. Anyway the neighbors reported seeing a girl with bruieses and scars waliking down the road. They came and put James in prison. The last words he said to me were 'I will find you and I will kill you Summer Rain Tomson'. Then I moved in will Jessica and I love her so much she helps me alot...but I still have nightmares everynight. I love you Harry and I want to give you a chance with my trust.Only one chance so please dont fuck it up." I finish and feel moisture on my cheeks. I finally I look up at Hatry and he is looling at me with pure amasment "I love you too. How do you do it Summer? How are you so strong? You are perfect. And I wont fuck it up I promise. Thank you." He stands up and kisses me. I love him

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