~minor time skip~
It's been five months into the engagement and I guess it's time to start planning the wedding. I haven't brought it up at all but I've been dropping hints. Since it's almost Christmas I've been thinking about having it during spring because it's a beautiful time. Not to hot or cold. I have no clue the color theme or anything. Just spring time. We haven't saved the date yet we haven't took any photos yet for the invitations. I kinda want it after my birthday. I'll be 20 and he'll be 21. It'll be two years soon and I have no clue what we're going to do. I want to bye him a new head set controller set and a keyboard. I've already got them ordered. Know since that's over and my life is a lie. I'm king to get Chianne and go from the faze house. I swear if Alex hurts her I'll castraight him. I was pulling into the drive way when I saw apex, banks and Chianne waiting for me. They all got in my car and we drove to a dress shop. Now it's time for the fun to start. We got inside and I started to tell them my name do they can check my appointment and stuff. And then explain that I'm also looking for bridesmaids dresses also.
"What are you looking for"
"This may sound weird but I want a game of thrones theme dress."
"I can see what we have. What about bridesmaids."
"I want something that goes with a winter theme."
"So you want basically a full game of thrones weeding for your side"
"Is that bad"
"No I like the idea. Let's go look for your dresses. So you have one bridesmaids"
"Yes"
"That's fine"
~time skip~
I can't believe I actually fount the dress I want and got Chianne's dress to. I'm so excited and I can't wait to tell Lucas. Speaking of Lucas. He's been really distant lately and I dm t know what's wrong. Is he getting cold feet or something. Did I do something wrong. I drove everyone back to the faze house and I went back to my house. I can't shake this feeling that the past will happen again. I parked in the drive way to see a different car there. I swear if he's doing it again I'm done. I walked into the living room and I could hear noises coming from our room. I opened the door just a crack and I could see two forms in our bed. Our bed. Our house. I look down at my ring and started to cry. I took it off and placed it on the floor I front of the door and walked out. I got in my car and drove to the only place I know that's ok to cry and be sad. I went straight over to the faze house. I arrived and I went to knock on the door. I waited till I heard someone come and open the door I didn't see who it was because I had my head down.
"Hey princess what's wrong"
I looked up to meet Ricky's baby/stormy blue eyes.
"Why are you crying. What's wrong"
That's when I lost it I threw my arms around him and cried my heart out.
"Lucas....cheated on me.... again"
"Again"
I nodded my head.
"Come in"
I felt him wrap his arm around my shoulders and lead me up the stairs to his room. He sat me down on his bed and sat beside me wrapping his arm around my shoulders. I laid my head down on his shoulder and continuing to cry. Ricky just rubbed my back until I was just a sniffling hiccuping mess.
"Know tell me what happened"
"When I came home after I dropped you guys off I pulled into my drive way and there was another car so I went inside and I heard noises coming from our bedroom and I opened the door a little to see him and some other girl in our bed so I took my ring off and sat it on the floor in front of the door. And now I'm here. "
"You don't deserve that"
"I mean it's not the first time"
"What"
"It happened when we first started dating and he said it would never happen again. But look where we're at. Almost two years of us together and now we're going to get married but I guess that's not happening now"
"I'm sorry princess you can stay here as long as you want"
"Thank you Ricky"
~Lucas p.o.v~
Once Nichole left I called Brittany over. I know it's bad but I just can't let her go. She was my first everything and then I meet Nichole and she's amazing but Brittany has been here longer. I heard a knock on the door and I knew it was her. I went to open it and saw Brittany there. I smiled and let her in. We went to Nichole and my room and things went heated. I felt a pang of guilt in the back of my mind and then I heard the door open but I thought it was in my mind. But after we were done I let her leave and I waited for Nichole to come home I walked back to our room to see Nichole's engagement ring on the floor. I knew she didn't loss it this morning. She was the noise I heard she walked in on me and I promised her and I broke it. I broke her again. I couldn't help but let my anger out as I punched the wall beside me and left a hole. I let the tears go. I fucked up big time.
( hey guys sorry this chapter is sad and messed up I hope you forgive me and I hope you guys have a great Christmas and I love you all. Please again don't be mad. And if you have any responses or questions for me to answer just comment below.)
