I Want You Bad (R5 AU)

Chapter 8

Bay's POV

I've been thinking about what Rocky said a lot lately and apart of me kind of thinks that I should believe him, but then there's that other part of me screaming he's an asshole who cheated on you, how can you ever trust him? I also want to want to believe that Abby and I are actually friends but if Rocky is right, who knows what Abby is up to...

"Bay, I really need to talk to you" Ryland told me.

"I need to talk to you too Ry" I said.

"Okay you go first" he said.

"Are you sure?" I ask him.

"Yeah, what did you want to tell me?" He asks me.

"Well... Rocky kind of came up to me yesterday" I told him.

"Oh, is he bothering you, just say the word Bay..." He started to say but I cut him off.

"No he's not bothering me.. actually..." I started to say but then I stopped myself. I can't tell Ryland what Rocky told me, he would never listen to anything he says.

"What? What happened?" He asks me.

"Uh, nevermind, how well do you really know Abby?" I asked him.

"Well I know that she's only been at this school for about a month, why do you ask?" He asks me.

"Uh no reason, just curious" I told him, which technically wasn't a lie, I was curious, it just wasn't the whole truth but if Ryland knew that the reason that I was so curious about Abagail is because Rocky told me and that I'm actually considering trusting him he would freak.

"Okay" was all he said.

"So what was it that you wanted to tell me?" I ask him.

"You know what, it can wait because we have to get to class but I'll tell you later okay" he says.

"Okay I'll just come over later and you can tell me then" I say as we start walking to our class.

"Alright" was all he said.

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*At The Lynch's House*

"So, what did you want to tell me?" I ask him.

"Right, well.. how do I say this..." He started to say but then he stopped himself. "Okay, I'm just gonna be honest with you, I know that you need some time to get over Rocky and I know that you just want to be friends and I know that you want to pretend like everything is normal, but it's not.. for me at least... Bay.. I can't stop thinking about you" he told me leaving me speechless.

"Oh" was all I said and I felt so bad but I didn't really know what to say.

"I really like you Bay and you know that but I understand that you need time, and I will give you all the time that you need because I'm willing to wait for you, no matter how long it takes, I love you..." He started to say but I cut him off feeling terrible that I didn't exactly feel the same way, I do love him just not like that.

"Ryland... You can't.. you can't feel that way about me" I told him. "I'm sorry but you're right, I do need time to get over Rocky but.. I just don't want to ruin everything that we already have because you mean so much to me" I told him honestly.

"So you don't feel the same way?" He asks me.

"Ryland.. I love you... Like a brother, you're like a brother to me" I told him.

"So you would just make out with you're brother then" he says with a tear in his eye.

"Ryland... That kiss was a mistake, it should have never happened, I shouldn't have let it happen, I just got out of a bad breakup.. I can't..." I started to say but he cut me off.

"Then why did you kiss me back? Why do you have to make me feel like this is one sided, I felt something in that kiss and I know that you did too, can you just give me a chance" he says which put tears in my eyes because I felt so bad, I really do want to be in love with him, I wish I could be, but I'm not.

"I.. Ryland, I don't know what to say" I told him.

"Just tell me that you felt something in that kiss.. or that you didn't if you really don't feel the same way about me, then just tell me how to stop loving you because I can't, did you feel anything in that kiss?" He asked.

"I don't know Ryland but I do know that I really don't want to lose you, I already lost Rocky, I can't lose you too, you're my best friend, can you please just be my best friend, that's all I need right now.

"Ok" was all he said.

"I feel like I should go.." I told him.

"You can go if you want, it's your choice" he said.

"I just want us to be friends again but if you need space I understand so do you?" I asked him.

"Yeah I guess" he told me which kind of made me sad, but if he needs space then I need to give him some space.

"Okay, well I'm gonna go then" I told him and with that I left.

So..... I haven't updated in a while and this is kind of a sad chapter.. I'm sorry you guys. I did want to update sooner but I had like no inspiration for this chapter so I'm sorry if this chapter sucks and I will try to update more and sooner. Also Merry Christmas!!!!!!!!!!!! I love you guys so much and I hope that you all are having a wonderful Christmas!!!!!! I might already have special Christmas chapter planned for this book and I'll either publish that later today or tomorrow and hopefully it will make up for this terrible chapter. Anyways that's all for now, hope you guys enjoyed this awful chapter, love you all bye Baudreys!!!

*Bay*