Possessed {Under a lot of editing}

Chapter 21

I put the car in park and just sat there in front of my house remembering everything that happened between me and Juliet, how could I be so stupid. Know Lisa is gonna tell her I know she is. This wont end well I know it. I turned off the car and got out. I walked up the steps and into my house. I think it was 9 am and I know my mom is probably worried sick. When I come in my mom is sitting on the couch. she jumps when she seems me come in.

"Hey honey," my mom says calmly while drinking her coffee. "You scared me." she says chuckling. I was confused, "Oh did you forget to call me to say you were staying at your friends house." She raised an eyebrow at me.

"Yeah im sorry," I put my jacket on the chair.

"So who is the lucky girl."

"Nobody mom,"

"What about Lisa. shes a nice girl." I laughed.

"She showed her true colors." She noded and sipped her coffee.

"Well I have to go get some groceries ill see you later." She got up and walked out the house. I sat there thinking, would Lisa really tell her. or will she have to find out on her own. I regret everything that I have done, especially to Juliet. I love her why would I hurt her. I grabbed my keys and went back outside. I was not gonna wait till my mom came back because if I did I would end up waiting a while because she likes to hang out with her friends after. who would blame her though. I called Juliet like 4 times and she wouldnt pick up, I hope lisa hasn't gotten to her first. We had a nice night no we didn't do anything. Maybe we did.

Juliet's P.o.v

I sat outside waiting for lisa to come by as she said she would. she wants to tell me something and I wanna know whether Justin likes It or not. I saw Lisa walking up playing with her hair. she stopped mid way and turned on her heels the other way, I knew she wanted me to follow her so I did. I ran up to her and she didn't even notice my presence. "What do you have to tell me?" I repeated twice still no answer. I stood in her way and she looked at me.

"Just follow me," she pushed me out of her way and kept walking. we first came to my cabin me and Justin's where I found him the other night. lisa walked inside and sat on the little couch. she twisted her hair and looked at the wall. I walked over too it and touched it. as I touched it I felt like if I was hit in the face by memories. I took a step back and looked over to lisa.

"Its okay," I touched the wall again and closed my eyes, there it was that memory.

-flashback-

"DONT YOU EVER RUN AWAY FROM ME DO YOU UNDERSTAND," Justin came into the cabin slamming the door as he entered. He slapped me across my face before I can say anything. my cheek was burning red it felt like if my face was on fire.

"I-I-i'm sorry."

"YOUR SORRY?" he pushed me up against the wall and punched me in my face as I fell to the floor. He kicked me reapedtly. "THAT'LL TEACH YOU TO NEVER RUN AWAY WHEN IM TALKING TO YOU." he walked out and left me laying there holding my stomach crying.

-end of flashback-

"Go over to the desk," lisa said in a calm voice. I knew what I was gonna see.

"Please don't make me see this."

"You have too." she shrugged and kept playing with her hair.

-flash back-

I ran over to my desk looking for my sharpener I quickly saw it and unscrewed it with a pair of siccors that were laying on the couch. Tears were streaming down my face I was crying so hard my vision started becoming blurry. As soon as I unscrewed it the blade popped out. I stared at it. ive seen this in movies, well a movie. self harm I think they call it. this is actually my first time ever thinking well doing this because I have thought about it but never really got to because I tried to avoid it. they say once you start it becomes addicting. I hesitated to take it but then quickly took it and sat in the corner of the room. I though about everything bad that has happened everything was my fault. that's my problem I think everythings my fault when I know its not but I allow myself to think it is. Now I can hurt myself for those mistakes basically have my own punishment. cutting seems like its gonna be my escape from everything. from how much of a mistake I am, how I lost my mother even though I didn't kill her my dad did I could have done something but i didnt. as usual im stuck here blaming everything on myself. ive never done anything about it but im about to. I want to break up with Justin but I love him. I started crying harder and when I looked down at my arm it was bleeding. I started breathing heavily and cut once more. i got up and grabbed my jacket and ran out the door. i kept running down the road not knowing where i was going i stopped at a big rock and wiped the tears from my face. i slid up my sleeve and saw the blood dripping down my arm i stood there wondering what i just did and what i would become of me. would i do this more often.

~end of flashback~

I backed up and stood against the wall. Justin was abusive and i cut. i know that but i wanna see more i looked at lisa who stood up. I walked towards her and stared at her until the words finally came out. "I wanna see more." she smiled and walked past me. i knew she wanted me to follow so i did.