Possessed {Under a lot of editing}

Trains.

“We are gathered to share the life of Juliet Andrews, let her rest in peace. Juliet was a beautiful loving, caring, funny girl. She will be forever missed.” The pastor kept talking as I just looked at the casket. Was My Juliet really in there. It was too good to be true. my love the love of my life was dead. nobody in here cared i looked around before sitting down looking at the casket once again. I knew she was feeling bad the other day and she had some pills but i never said anything because i thought i could fix her. i could feel the tears begin to form. 

“Babe, what are those, what are you doing out so late at night?” I looked at the brown paper bag and looked back at her eyes filled with water.

“Its noting Justin.” She pulled away from my grip and I carried her back looking straight into her eyes seeing pain and how broken she was and i just wanted to help her through this. 

“Juliet we talked about this.” She began to cry.

“Justin I just cant anymore. I don’t know whats wrong with me anymore. I started cutting myself again. I feel like nothing without my scars.”

“Juliet, please don’t. I care I always have. I cant loose you, I don’t want to and I don’t want to even think of that day.”

“I know Justin, I know you care you’re the only one who does these days.” She looked down and went to the tarsh and threw away the bag.

“Were those pills?” I said as I pulled in for a hug.

“Yes,” she said buried into my shoulder. “I’ll stay strong but only for you.”

 

I noticed that the ceremony was over. My mom tried to hug me but i just rejected it and walked out with my head down. people looking like they cared i chuckled at the people i saw. people who bullied my poor juliet were here pretending to care when in reality they didnt.

“Im sorry for your loss.”

“No your not.” I mumbled. I saw that it was Kristina the one who had always made fun of her.

“I am i kn-” I interrupted her.

“No your not, you drove her to this I want nothing to do with you and your apologies.” I said. “AND THAT GOES FOR ANYONE ELSE I DON’T WANT TO HEAR YOUR DAMN ‘SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS’ NONE OF YOU CARE, DO YOU?” I looked at Juliet’s dad who turned away. “EXACTLY SO PLEASE DON’T BOTHER ME. I don’t want to hear it.” I walked off and onto the trail that me and Juliet used to walk. I sat down on the bench and buried my face into my hands and started crying. “Is she really gone?” I whispered to myself not really talking to anyone. 

"i miss you baby." i said looking up at the sky. i grabbed a bottle of beer from my bag i had. i knew i was going to get into this again. i drank and drank as tears kept falling. "FUCK." i threw the bottle at the wall watching it shatter. i grabbed a peice of glass and cut my hand feeling so much pain. pain that needed to be released. i didnt know what else to do, "shes gone." i whispered to myself getting louder each time i said it till i threw the glass onto the train tracks as the train zoomed by. i wanted so badly to step in front of it but was soon inturrupted. 

"HEY HEY YOU!" i heard a male voice say. i looked behind me and saw him running towards me grabbing me pulling me away from the train. 

"WHAT DID YOU DO IT WAS RIGHT THERE!" i scremed as tears escaped quickly. he looked at me with sorrowfull eyes.