The Alpha's Girl

Chapter 14

"Cooper what are we doing?"

"Going to my room, why?"

I didn't answer. To be honest, I don't know what I want anymore.

"Is there a problem?"

"I-I just don't know."

He opened his door, stopped himself, and turned around.

"What do you mean, you don't know?"

My gaze found its way to the floor.

I shrugged, feeling his eyes burning a hole through me.

I was pushed into his dark room, I gasped from the sudden movement.

The lights flickered on and Cooper reappeared.

"What do you mean, Estella?! I can't play games! Do you want me, or do you not? If not there's the door," His voice raising as he pointed to the door.

I felt my heart drop, what am I supposed to say? 'I don't know.' again? He'll be extremely angrier. I want him, and I don't. I DON'T FUCKING KNOW.

His vibrant eyes searched mine, looking for a answer.

I'm confused, I don't know what to think.

He shook his head, "Just leave, Estella. This can't work if both sides of the relationship aren't willing to participate."

Anger boiled inside of me, "What?!"

"Are you kidding me? I didn't go making out with a fucking female in the hallway, and not to fucking mention in front of your mate! What do you want me to do Cooper?! Just forgive you? If that's the case, that's not going to happen! You can't go playing with peoples feelings and just go makeout with some girl, and then bring her pegly ass home, like what the actual fuck? Your logic is screwed if that's what you think!"

"I'm your alpha, and mate or not, you do not speak to me in that tone!"

"Are you fucking kidding me! I'm spilling my heart out and all you're getting out of this is my tone with you?!"

"How do you think I feel, Estella?! I watched you go to that party after I had told you not to, and then flirt with my worst fucking enemy! What the hell kind of move was that? Huh, huh Estella? You deliberately disobeyed me and then flirted with other guys!" His eyes lowered, and when they resurfaced, they were pitch black.

"ATLEAST I DIDN'T KISS THEM!"

His low voice rumbled across the room, and bounced off the walls,"Did you or did you not kiss Dylan?"
After you kissed that bimbo.

"After you kissed that girl in the hallway! You played dirty, so I did too!"

"But you still kissed him."

"After you kissed her!"

"Seriously Estella, if you're pinning all this shit down on me, look at your damn plate and see if it's clean!"

"That's not fucking fair! And you know it," By this point, I was tearing up, and was pointing my finger in his face, "I only kissed Dylan because you kissed her! I only flirted with the guys at the party to see if you cared, to see if you actually wanted me! For fucks sake Cooper, I only wanted to know if you even fucking liked me. I'm tired of being screwed over, and wasting all of my time on some silly boy who wouldn't think twice about me."

"Well, guess what, I don't want you-"

My heart stopped, my mind froze. I couldn't breathe.
All of this for nothing. All of the tears, for nothing. Every thing for nothing. Why do I fall for the wrong ones? Why do I even let myself fall for them? I only get hurt, I always do. I'm such a fucking idiot.

"-now can you leave? Daniella is coming over soon."

I felt my frown deepen, nodding.

"Estella, quit fucking crying. Head up, and smile, he's only doing this to hurt you. Be strong."
How do you stay strong whenever you felt as if your hearts been ripped out of your chest?

I turned my head, walking out the door.

I didn't even turn around, my mouth began to move without me even knowing, "Next time, I won't be here. So don't try to come back, you're dead to me. Have your fun with Daniella. She seems like a nice girl."

I let out a shaky breathe, heading out his room.

I silently prayed, he'd turn me around and apologize. I prayed he would say 'Just kidding, Estella, come back.'

Instead I heard, "I will."

At that point, I felt like something stabbed me. I wanted to cry out in pain, but he would only like that. That would only satisfy him.

I walked out of the house and drove home, crying the whole way there.

I slammed my door to the house, and climbed the stairs to my room.

I threw my keys down, and gripped my hair.
'I don't want you'

His words echoed through my head the whole way home. I let out a loud sob, throwing myself on my bed.

He acted as if nothing had mattered to him. Acted like I was nothing to him.
What the hell am I supposed to think?

Do I give up? What do I do? He doesn't want me. He never liked me. And he never will.
You were just another toy.
What happened to mates?
You're hilarious if you think you were actually mates.

I threw my hands up in the air, and screamed.
This cannot be happening to me, not again.

My eyes fluttered to the ceiling, not being able to sleep.

I frowned, wiping my eyes.

"I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim."

- Bring Me The Horizon