Finding A Way Back To Her - Book 2 of Finding A Way Back

16. Fear

Felix's POV

I wake up to a sunrise. Today's the day I'm finally going to kill Joey. I grab the dagger I found in Peter's tree and climb down onto the ground.

A while ago Peter gave me some fairy dust. I'm the only one on the island besides him who has some. He told me it was for emergencies only. Sorry Peter, but this is an emergency to me. I take some and sprinkle it on me. I fly into the air.

Soon enough I see a town, Joey's town. I know it's Joey's town because Peter talks about it constantly. He's always saying how he wants to take her away from the place. I barely listen, though. Why should I? We have work to do and all he does is worry about that stupid girl.

I'm shaken out of my thoughts when I finally see her orphanage. I fly down to it. It's pitiful. I look through all the windows till I finally see Joey sitting alone in a room full of beds. She's messing with the ends of her night gown and looks deep in thought. I grip the dagger tighter and reach for the window. It creaks open as I step in. Joey looks up and sees me. I put my finger to my mouth, telling her to stay quiet. She looks frightened and does as told. I keep stepping toward her, and I slowly start to pull out the knife. She breathes heavily and I can see her getting more and more scared. My finger stays on my mouth and she stays quiet.

"Joey, Joey.  Do you know why I'm doing this?"

She shakes her head, still silent.

"Because you kept distracting Peter from what was most important. The lost boys. We had plans you know? Plans of turning the lost boys into fighting machines. Plans of taking over islands. But you took that all away from us! From me! You know what Peter said to me recently? You know what he said?"

She stares at me, frightened.

"He said he's changed! That you're turning him good! Peter was my only friend! And you took that away from me! Now I'm going to take you away from him." I walk closer to her.

"I was going to use some of Peter's magic, but all I found was this knife," I twirl it around in my hands, "I guess it'll do. Sorry, Joey, but Peter's mine now."

Then I hear the window bang behind me.

"Oh, Felix, don't you know I keep all of my magic right here?" I then feel a sudden pain in my back. I fall to the ground and all I see is darkness.

Joey's POV

Felix starts to come closer with his knife in hand.  "Sorry, Joey, but Peter's mine now."

Then the window bursts open. It's Peter. Peter reaches out his hand and shoots green smoke at Felix. Felix falls to the ground. Breathing heavily, Peter looks up at me. He doesn't say anything, just stares. I jump out of the bed and run over and hug him. I didn't think I'd ever be hugging him again. His arms close tight around me and he puts his hand on my head.

"You're okay now, I've got you."

I pull away from him. I wanted to ask him about what Felix said, about him saying that he had changed. But I kept it to myself. I knew all along that he would change. But once he finally did, I was blind and couldn't see that.

"I'm such an idiot!" I yell, grabbing my hair with my hands.

"Wha-"

"Why did I believe his lies? Why couldn't I see that you still loved me?" I move back and run into the bed. I then slide down to the floor. I stare at the ground, angry at myself.

"I wondered the same thing." I look up to see Peter sitting beside me. He's looking at the window that is across from us, the window that he first came in.

"That was where we had our first kiss. Do you remember that?" He says, pointing at the window.

"How could I not? That was the first night I saw something spark in you. The night I saw love in your eyes."

"You are so special, Joey. That's why I first fell in love with you. You were the only one that got me. The only one who could see a different me, a me without evil."

I look at him, bewildered.

"Aren't you mad at me? How can you even look at me without wanting to rip my heart out? I want to rip my heart out."

He looks at me and smirks.

"A while back someone told me that love can feel like you just died."

The words flash back in my brain.

"How? I feel like I just died."

"Well, when you love a person that much, that's just how it feels."

I smile.

"I said that." I start to laugh a bit, he laughs a little too.

I lie my head on his lap and gaze up at the ceiling.

"Thank you."

"For what?"

"For saving my life. I'm not sure what I would've done if you weren't there."

"I bet you would've been just fine."

Silence. In that silence I start to think. I don't think I would've been fine. Why did I just sit there like an idiot? Was I just scared? Shocked? Even if I was, I never would've just sat there. I'm the girl that challenged Peter Pan, and I was scared by one of his lost boys?

"You look worried." Peter jolts me out of my thoughts.

"No, just thinking." I say, and give him a half-smile.

"No, tell me."

"I'm fine," I reassure him, even though he's right. I am worried. But I can't let him know that, not right now. I just want to lay here, with him, and stay like this. Forever.