Bullying, Our Secret

Chapter 18 - "Let me help you feel good"

My mother was horrified when she saw my hair. I had to lie to her so she wouldn't suspect a thing of what happened. I had to even cut parts of it to try to helplessly fix the mess.
I was consumed, I barely had any strength to go to school and my pale and weak figure resembled it.

Justin called me. Don't ask how he got my number he just did. It wasn't at the top of my concerns anyways. He requested me to go to his house and continue with the helping lessons. I accepted fearing that if I kept myself alone for any longer I'd drown in my dark thoughts.

I took the first bus to his house. Normally I wouldn't take a bus because talking to strangers is a huge struggle of mines but I made the effort anyway. I knocked on the door hesitatingly, hoping I didn't interrupt anything important even though I was invited by Justin.

The door opened revealing a wet Justin with a white towel tightly wrapped around his hips. I could feel my face heating up as I had a glimpse of her well defined and built body.

"Sorry that I'm like this I took a quick shower, nice hair style" He chuckled as he ran his fingers through his soaking hair.

I gulped gesturing that it was alright. He indicated me to go inside and I followed him up to his room. I gently sat on his bed and held my notebook tight against my chest.

"Jason doesn't stop talking about you, he likes you so much" Justin said grabbing another towel from his bathroom and drying his hair with it.

"He is very sweet" I replied slowly as I watched Justin walk with the towel on his head. My cheeks blushed as I saw his bulge against his towel. My heartbeat started to accelerate uncontrollably.

"Is everything alright" He asked subtly as he finished his task. I shook my head vividly trying to maintain my form.

Suddenly he placed his knee on the bed and pushed me back gently. I laid on his bed as i watched him place each of his legs to each of my sides. His towel was loosening up and I could see his trail of hair going down to his private parts.
He faced me and started to breath heavily just causing my confusion to grow.

"Let me help you feel good" He whispered huskily as he targeted my neck with his lips and started to kiss them with lust.

I moaned biting on my lower lip as my back arched forward. My notebook fell to the floor and I gripped his sheet tightly between my hands to bare with the feeling he was provoking inside of me.

He drove his hands towards my buttoned shirt. He started to unbutton them one by one. His eyes locked lustily on my bra. I gently pressed my hands against his chest.

"Hey, don't worry. I know what you have been through and I just want to help" He whispered kissing my forearm.

I stared at him for a couple of seconds but I gave it in to him. He seemed caring and that was unexpected but comforting. He opened my unbuttoned shirt and started to trail a line of kisses down my neck to my breasts. His towel slid down his body revealing his naked figure in front of my eyes. My eyes widened as I never saw a male naked and wasn't expecting his male organ to have such a big length.

I heard a short beeping sound and frowned in confusion. Justin approached my neck quickly and started to kiss it lustily soothing me down and producing the moans emanating from my mouth.

He grinned and pulled my pants off in a single movement. My matching underwear flashed against his sparkly eyes. He traced the lace with his fingers until he reached my sex entrance. I gulped as his finger left a trail of heat behind it. He firmly but slowly gripped on the sides of my underwear and pulled down from it until it reached my knees.

Now I was completely exposed to him.

I couldn't believe what happened. I was shaking in surprise and shock. I almost lost my virginity to Justin. The guy that made my life a living hell.

He rolled out his tongue until it laid on my sex. He energetically started to move it around producing a pleasing sensation on me. I could feel him groaning and moaning against my skin. His wet tongue swirling around my clit and kissing it every now and then.
One of his hands travelled up my body and took a grip on my breast causing me to arch my back. My breast were sensitive to his touch and it felt like a galaxy was forming inside my body.

He used his arms as a support point as addressed his long and thick sex organ towards my entrance. But just before he could jerk his hips forward inside of me I stopped him. I was paralysed but it couldn't restrain me from preventing the situation.

I left his house as quickly as possible after getting dressed again. He was surprised with hints of anger, I could tell he was by his tone.
Everything felt so good yet so bad at the same time and I didn't know why. He surely knew how to please a girl but all I could think of was all the times that he hurt me. My brain simply couldn't work out the reason why he suddenly desired me physically after all these years of body shaming me.

I sighed in relief when I reached my house. My mum was out shopping so I was grateful she wouldn't ask me how things went or why was I shaking so bad.

The phone rang and I almost jumped from my place. I picked it up and mumbled a weak "hello?".

"Hey Call, are you ok?" Justin's unmistakable voice replied from the other line.

I held the phone tightly between my hands. I didn't know how Justin had my house phone number but that was the least of my problems.

"Oh- Yeah... It's just I haven't done that before so I got really scared" I excused myself biting on my bottom lip.

"It's fine, you shouldn't be scared around me, I wouldn't hurt you" He forced a small chuckle to my explanation.

"Yeah... Sorry if I- Let you down?" I tried to speak something decent but it was hard due to my shyness and shock.

"Anyways, the Dancing Mid-Term Night is tomorrow so I thought you could come" He asked.

I kept quiet for a couple of seconds. I have never attended any social school event since I knew going would be like digging my own grave. People would most likely make fun of me plus I'd just be standing over one corner and just watch everyone socialise.

I packed together all my braveness left in my body "I could go I guess..."

Justin cheered and after a couple of seconds we both hung up. I didn't know how to feel about the dance. I wanted to go and spend time with Justin, somehow I enjoyed his company now that he changed but I knew that people that didn't like me at all were going too.
I promised Justin I was going to go so I couldn't cancel it now, plus he already got disappointed when I stopped him earlier it would be too risky to just do it again.

I sighed and I walked over to my room. I looked through my wardrobe. My clothes weren't very smart or party-like. I never went to any dance before or a similar event so it was obvious that I had no proper clothes. I sighed and let myself rest on my bed. My phone beeped and I saw a couple of rude comments posted on my account. I ignored them like I would usually do and focused on the dress task.

I need to find a good dress to at least impress Justin. Maybe that could even help me socialise and show the people I wasn't that bad!