That's kinda fucked up you're basically just using me for sexual stuff while your girlfriend isn't here like wtf I know we did shit when I was with G. but it wasn't like this he never left he was still here while we were doing shit.
Sometimes I just feel so fucking used and disposable and I like never want to speak to you again but ik that won't happen cause I do want to talk to you I enjoy everything we do and talk about and it hurts but idfc I suck it up cause I'm not some weak little bitch and if I didn't fucking love you I Wouldnt let this bullshit happen.And dont try to bet pissy or say you're sorry cause when I appoligize I really fucking mean it and I try to show that I do and sometimes I feel you say sorry just to move onto some other shit and I really do fucking care about you I want you to be so fucking goddamn happy but idgaf about how depressed I am. It doesn't even matter I'm always fine I'm trying my fucking hardest to stay alright and not scar up my body and if I need a little ten minute cry session almost every night so what. I'll cry, I'll get over it. I don't need you making me feel like shit over being sad I hold everything inside. Everything. I have never told anyone my emotional problems except you. You are the only human being to know and hear about how challenged I am inside my mind and to know how broken up I am. I try to stop putting it all on you but like ....when you find someone who REALLY listens its hard to stay quiet and not tell them more. You're such a bitch but I am too so
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NonfiksiThis is a book to contradict my depression one, hopefully I start adding to this one more often than the other, please give them both a read, my life and thoughts can be pretty amusing I suppose😊😂
