This is a book to contradict my depression one, hopefully I start adding to this one more often than the other, please give them both a read, my life and thoughts can be pretty amusing I suppose😊😂
I hate my parents so very much. They're so annoying and inconsiderate and they're such fucking cunts it makes me want to just scream and I can't let that pent up anger out except in unhealthy ways and I can't bother to do any of my schoolwork I'm just so depressed and broken down I feel so useless and worthless and disgusting and I dont want to be here anymore I just want to be all alone, but not really. I'm a needy little bitch who has to have people to talk to. Its funny how I stay alive for family and people, yet they're the ones who cause my craving to end my pain. Its so difficult now to do anything. I'm so unmotivated and I just dont want to do anything ever I'm trying to starve myself, i mean I eat food at school I guess, but I force it all down. I am down to 140. That isn't enough, I've become increasingly obsessed with checking the scale I do it multiple times a day I just want to disappear, I'm obsessed with insulting myself, I hate everything about me. I'm such a fucking terrible human being I dont deserve anything, I deserve to die. A slow, torturous death, for all the suffering I've caused to others. I'm so fucking pathetic and it drives me crazy. I just want to feel like I deserve to be alive.
Eh what can I do tho, I could be worse ✌
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I dont really think I'll kill myself, but that is by far my single, greatest fear. I'm terrified that I may end my own life, but like idk Lol probably not
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^^ This is so sad and true and highly relatable for me it hits me so fucking deep idk if anyone else will get it but like yeah, that's a major hit to my emotions
