Because I Love You |✔️

[32]• Call Me Crazy♥

Cassie Mallet

"See you tomorrow.. then?" I say gently smiling a little as Jake and i stood outside my door. "Of course, Good night babe." He spoke huskily kissing my cheek briefly before turning to walk away back to his car. "Night," I whispered after him doubting he heard it. I sighed and turned the key in the door leading me into my house.

"What was that all about?" i mumbled my head doing what it does best running a thousand and one thoughts threw my mind. Since when does Jake kiss me on the cheek good night? it's always been on the lips. Always. Maybe it's because i have bad breath after that pizza we ate? no, it's not that - i reassure myself after taking a quick whiff of my breathe. Well there's definitely something weird going on and it ain't me being paranoid again, tonight was different i could feel it. I'll call Jenifer, maybe she'll reassure me its nothing.

I dialed Jen's number into my phone and waited patiently as it called.

"Hello, Jenifer Stone speaking can i help you?"

I smiled my cheeks tightening against the phone. "Funny real funny," I chuckled rolling my eyes. "Did that sound professional or was it too much? i'm practising answering the phone so like i sound professional when a producer or something rings ya-no!" Jenifer said her voice rosy and happy as it always is.

"Yeah, it was pretty professional for sure." I tell her, holding back my giggles. Like C'mon who takes answering the phone seriously anyway.

"Really? that's awesome! i thought i was never going to perfect it!" She awed in accomplishment.

"Well you have," I congratulated "Anyway Jen, i wanted to ask--" "But do you think it's too, oh i dunno, to professional? like i don't want to come across as to buisnessy, i wanna be me to ya-no?" Jenifer said stopping me in mid sentence. I sighed and rolled my eyes at the phone the way i would if she was standing in front of me.

"No it sounds grown up, it's perfect Jen." I smiled against the phone. "Thank you Case, i really needed some reinsurance." "Anyway, i began taking in a breathe. "What's up any how? i can tell there's something up" Jenifer said in her sweet perky tone. "How do you know?" I questioned. "Because you just verified it by saying "how do you know" so that basically means there is something up," She stated and i could feel her smiling. "Oh, really?" I chuckled pressing the phone closer to my ear raising an eye brow. "Really! She repeated "Now spill the gossip".

"Okay," I agreed sucking in a breathe. "So it's about Jake," I began biting my bottom lip. "I should have known," Jenifer laughed "What did he do now?"

"Well nothing... technically."

"I don't understand?" Jenifer asked confused. "Well, he's been acting strange today".

"How do you mean by strange?"

"Like, he's been quite not speaking a lot, and he kissed me on the cheek good night and he never does that it's always been on the lips!" I exclaim throwing myself down on my bed. "Hmm," Jenifer hummed going quite. "Have you guys had sex?"

"What!? no! ewe!" I tell her seriously. "Okay, okay just asking!" She laughed. "What would sex have to do with this!" I mutter annoyed at her. "I was just exploring an option okay? jeez chill!" Jenifer groaned. "And has he been this way all day?"

"Yes... wait no, not until..." I paused suddenly realizing. "Not until what?"

"I told him, I loved him" I stopped releasing a shaky breath. "You told him you loved him?!" Jenifer gasped clearly shocked. I went quite for a few seconds thinking about it, maybe that's what happened maybe i freaked him out. "Yeah," I whimpered down the phone to Jen a few seconds later.

"And do you?"

I closed my eyes my heart beginning to skip beats at the question she asked replaying in my mind. Do i? now that's a big question. Well i told him i did so i must do? but how can i it's only been a couple months since i met him how could i possibly love him in that amount of time? it's crazy. I'm crazy. But then, the memories i have with him, the moments we shared, his warm hugs and tender kisses... his honey coated brown eyes, and his plum rosy pink lips......

Opening back up my eyes, i pulled the phone back to my ear.

"Yes, i do, i think!" I laughed for no particular reason, then i found myself smiling like an idiot. It was like i had just won the lottery. I'm in love.

"You think? your crazy Cassie, and why on earth are you laughing!" Jenifer spoke her voice becoming worried. "I'm in love Jen, i didn't realize until now, but i am, i love him." I laughed again, little tears of joy leaving my eyes.

"Are you listening to yourself? you sound crazy!" 

"Jenifer, do you realize i never thought i'd ever fall in love? i mean that only happens in fairy-tales, books, he's like my prince charming, he saved me from becoming a nobody, he helped me reach my dream even though it's not complete yet but i know it will be soon, and now i'm falling for him, this kinda stuff doesn't happen to me Jen, i'm just  a normal girl."

"Are you on drugs?" Jen whispered sarcastically.

"Jenifer, i'm serious! i say confidently. "I think your getting caught up in the moment Cassie, you don't know what your saying" Jenifer whined. "Maybe, i don't then maybe i'm just crazy after all! but right now, i do".

"Jesus girl, you've lost it!" Jenifer exclaimed. "I know, i have," I admit knowing all this sounds crazy.

"Finally some sense out of you," Jenifer says in relief.

"But that doesn't mean it's wrong Jen." I say in almost a whisper before hanging up the line. She just doesn't get it. I thought. But then again neither do i? what the hell am i even on about for Christ sake's! me in love? i'm eighteen years old, how would i even know what love is?"

Truth? no one knows what love is, we all have our own idea's and theories about it but to me and what i've seen and know about love is its the closet thing we have to Magic.

You don't know how it happens, you don't expect it when it does, and it always keeps you guessing, just like Magic. Now i may just be old fashioned, but i think love is when you get butterfly's in your belly when your just looking at him, when you kiss you see fireworks! when you hold hands its like an electrical feel running threw you..."

And when i'm with Jake? i get butterfly's i get tingles, sometimes i feel like i'm quizzically going to hurl with excitement! i don't just look at him, i admire him, when we hold hands i do feel that spark, and when we kiss? i don't exactly know what happens cause the moment our lips touch i can't think about anything else but him and me, full stop.

So call me old fashioned or call me crazy, but i think that's as close to love i've ever been. Maybe he don't feel the same, i don't know but he must feel something, he has to.

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