The Crash- Dan x Reader

Chapter 42

A/N Fair warning, I wrote this whole thing while listening to a sad Destiel song on repeat...

*Your POV*

As I ran down the street, weaving through people trying to lose Simon and Dan, but I could still hear their loud thumps every step they took. I ran as fast as my feet could carry me, I knew I would at least out run Dan, but Simon was active and relentless. I didn't stand a chance... then the thumping stopped, and I stopped along with it I slowly turned around to face Simon who stood a few metres away from me. His eyes filled with sadness as the crowd of people swallowed him, making him invisible to me. I turned back around and kept on my way to Phil and (F/N) flat.

When I finally arrived I walked in the front door of the building and waiting to be buzzed in. When I finally was I climbed the stairs up to their flat and knocked on their door to unlock it and let me in. I could feel my eyes start to fill up with tears, they were reaching the breaking point but just as the door opened I sucked them back and put on a smile.

"Hey you alright?" Phil's soft accent pulling me from my trance.

"Yeah, yeah..." I hesitated trying to convince myself of my blatant lie. "No." I blurted out running inside to hug Phil. I buried my face in his chest as tears starting waterfalling. I could feel Phil's consoling hand rubbing circles on my back and just whispering that I would be okay.

That's what I liked about Phil, he didn't lie to me. He didn't tell me that everything would be okay because he knew that never would everything be alright. Only that I would eventually be okay. Which had to be true right? I mean someday, I would wake up in the morning with a smile on my face and it would be able to stay there all day and it be genuine. I desperately hoped so.

I pulled my tear stained cheeks out of Phi's chest looking at his shirt and noticing I had stained it too with my makeup dripping.

"I'm so sorry Phil," I mumbled, sniffling back the tears. He hadn't realized until he looked down at his blue shirt.

"It's alright," he cooed pulling me back into his warm embrace, the tears came back and I was balling then.

(F/N) walked to the door to this horrific sight of me with my face red hot and wet. And on top of that, mascara and eyeliner streaking my cheeks. I heard her faintly, "awe" but it was muffled by Phil's arms wrapped around my head covering my ear.

Then I felt a second pair of arms wrap around my back and then the two bodies around me started shuffling away from the front door and further into the flat. Then there was the loud sound of the entrance door slamming shut behind me, but it felt distant. The only place I wanted to be at this point was wrapped up in my two best friends arms as they comforted me peacefully.

We lowered ourselves to the sofa and they both still had their arms snaked around my entire body, like a boa constrictor, not letting me move even if I wanted to. I chuckled slightly, they both looked at me confused, after all, I was literally crying out every drop of water in me and all of a sudden I was laughing for unknown reasons.

"(Y/N)..." (F/N) hesitates, "You alright?"

I pull out of their embrace and sit in between them on the sofa. Bringing my hands up to my face I wiped the tears and makeup off my face with the ironic smile still plastered there.

If you have ever read The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini, you know exactly what I'm talking about. In chapter 23 when Assef is beating up Amir and he just laughs, the obvious response would either be crying or screaming out in pain, but Amir just laughs and laughs. He finally feels relief, in that scene was how I felt now. I was Amir and both Simon and Dan were Assef. I finally felt free. Everything was out in the open, I finally knew the truth about who everyone was and I got my redemption. I was the reason all this was happening and this was my penance. I was liberated from the lies I was telling to everyone and myself, this, this was my chance to change that, to come clean. To stop lying to myself about who I loved and who I didn't. I wanted to start now.

After my roar of laughter died down, I explained to my friends just so that they didn't think I was a raging sociopath. Once the understood I leapt to my feet off of the sofa throwing my coat over my shoulders and begun to walk towards the door. But Phil and (F/N) beat me to it,

"Where do you think you're going?" Phil demanded and (F/N) nodded her head.

"To get the man I actually love."

A/N I know this is short, I just needed to end like that and I wanted to give you all something since I've been lazy recently and I'm sorry about that. Also again I made a huge mistake listening to freaking Destiel songs while writing this and singing them making myself sad. Anyways...

Thanks for reading,

Lyssy xo