When I Was Fat

4.

"Just because we're apart doesn't mean you're not in my heart,"

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This was a mistake. Maybe
i should change my mind? Yeah, I'll do that.

"Don't even think about it, lady," Jen warned me.

"But-"

"Nu-uh. Not a chance," She cut me off.

"You have to join this competition. I've heard you singing and it was beautiful. Don't even argue with me on this one," she warned again.

"The thing is, there's an audition. What's worse, in front of the whole people! They're gonna laugh at me" i complained.

"I'll kick all their arse if they do. Besides, not the whole students are going to watch," She rolled her eyes.

I sighed.

She was not going to let this go, not until i said yes.

"Ugh, fine!" i said, defeatedly. Signing my name on the paper.

"Yay!" She squealed and hugged me.

She really liked hugging me, like she said, i was like a teddy bear.

Still, i wasn't sure this was a good idea.

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*The day of the audition*

"You're going to be alright. I'm sure of it. Don't worry," Jen said, trying to calm me.

It didn't work. My hands were still shaking. People were gonna laugh at me! I swallowed more of my water until it was finally finished.

"Wow this is actually the first time I've ever seen you finished a bottle of water," she said.

Ignoring her statement, I said "Have you seen the audience? There are a lot of people out there! They're gonna laugh, trust me. Does my hair look okay? Can you check my my face if there's any-"

Why did i care? I never cared about what people think.. Maybe because there was someone out there that made you cared about your appearance suddenly.

"You look beautiful! Stop worrying. As long as you try your best, you will make it to the final. Oh i cannot wait to see those bit*hes faces," She said wickedly.

I slapped her arm.

"Ouch! What was that for?" she said.

"They are not going to choose me! Have you heard the others? They were amazing," I complained.

"Mehh. They were alright," She scoffed.

"Hey. Did you see who's out there watching? NICK!" She squealed and winked at me.

Sigh. It has been almost a week when we first introduced ourselves. And then, we didn't talk at all. Only small glances. Sometimes even, i caught him looking at me but then he looked away quickly.

I groaned and face palmed my self inwardly. How marvelous.

"Diana Christal,"

Oh fu*k.

It was my turn.

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