When I Was Fat

6.

"I hate it when someone is absolutely beautiful but their personality is trash"

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I was still beaming when i was
walking on the way to the cafeteria, but immediately shook my head as if this was all just nonsense.

"Hey you fat bit*h" a voice called me. That voice i longed not to hear.

Amber.

Freaking.

Jasmine.

I closed my eyes, trying all my best to be patient and not to care what people think. It really hurt me, deep inside my heart.

I kept on walking, trying to avoid anything that was going to occur in any second. But of course, she wouldn't let this go easily.

"Hey I'm talking to you," she snatched my arm tightly and turned me around. My eyes met with the cruelest eyes.

"Just because you have a great voice doesn't mean you're going to be all popular and people will see you in a different way. You're still the fat Christal. You will always be fat. Don't forget that. And i saw you eyeing my Nick. Stay the f*ck away. Can't you just realize that no one, not one guy would want you? Do i have to remind you every day? YOU. ARE. FAT" she said, digging her long sharp nails in my arms, enough to draw blood.

She smirked and walked away, twirling her hair with her middle finger.

Her harsh words was so cruel. It was like she shot me a thousand time in the heart, still remain alive, but can feel the pain.

Don't cry. Don't you dare cry. I thought.

But it didn't help.

I couldn't take it anymore. I cried. I cried so hard and hugged my self. I could feel liquid on my left arm, realizing it was blood. Amber was a cruel one. How dare she? Didn't she have a heart? Did she have to be that heartless to me? What did i ever do to her?

Was my fatness really offended her? Did it affected her that much? Or was there other reasons that disturbed her that made her hated me that much?

Thank god all the people was in the cafeteria. They would think i i was crazy and weak if they saw me crying like a baby.

But only one thing that would make me feel better. My worst habit if i felt weak and very fat.

I went inside the toilet, and did exactly what i did.

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