When I Was Fat

5.

Taking a deep breath, trying not panic. I could do this.

I walked out towards the center of the stage. I heard some people were snickering, trying not laugh. I bit my lips trying so hard not to cry. I took a deep breath once again.

Don't let them let you down. I am stronger than they thought.

"Christal, are you ready?" Miss Lola asked me.

"Ye-yes," I stuttered.

"I'm going to sing a song called I Have Nothing by Whitney Houston," I said confidently.

I looked for Jen but accidentally locked eyes with the one and only, Nick.

The music started. I closed my eyes, waiting for the right moment.

~Share my life,
Take me for what I am
Cause i'll never change
All my colours for you

~I don't really need to look,
very much further.
I don't want to have to go,
where you don't follow.
I will hold it back again,
this passion inside.
I can't run from my self,
there's nowhere to hide.

I braced myself for the powerful part.

~Don't make me close,
one more door.
~I don't want to hurt,
anymore.
~Stay in my arms,
if you dare.
~Or must i imagine you there.
~Don't walk away from me,
I have nothing nothing nothing
~If i don't have you you..

I was glad that i reached the high notes perfectly. I thank the whole bottle of water i swallowed, when i was nervous. Except the bottle of course! I rarely drank water.. I usually drink Pepsi or Cola.. Mmm.. Just thinking about it made my stomach slightly growled.

When it was finally over, there was moment of silence. I almost thought i was bad at it that made them went silent.

And then all of them were suddenly cheering. Some were standing up clapping their hands, even the teachers.

Jen was jumping up and down, screaming loudly.

I laughed nervously, suddenly shy. I could feel my face heating up.

I looked at the audience, trying to find that someone. But he was no where to be seen. My heart broke a little.

I bowed my head shyly, and said my thank you. I went out to the back stage. People were complimenting me. Some even surprisingly, hugged me. This was so strange. I felt a little uncomfortable, but didn't show it.

I heard a squeal, immediately knowing who it was. Jen ran towards me and hugged me tightly.

"Oh my god, you were amazing! Your voice is the combination of Beyonce and Ariana Grande, i swear,"

I laughed, "Now you're talking nonsense Jen,"

"Hey, I've sworn myself there, means i'm not lying," she said.

We laughed together.

"Let's go to the cafeteria, I'm starving!" she said while rubbing her flat tummy.

"How can you eat a lot and still skinny? But, Mehh, I'm hungry too. Let me just grab my things. You can go first," I said.

"Okay, see you babe. I'm not skinny btw" she laughed and walked out.

I went to grab my things at a room, stuffing my book of lyrics in my beg.

"You were great out there ," a deep voice said.

I jumped, nearly had a heart attack at the sudden voice. Only to found out it was Nick, scratching at the back of his neck, looking at me.

"You scared me!" I almost screamed, feeling my heartbeat quickened.

"I'm sorry," he chuckeled, "I didn't know you can sing"

"My mom and dad was a singer.. So i guess it runs from the blood." I shrugged. "You weren't there at the audience," I blurted out. Nice one.

"So you were searching for me?" he smirked, walking towards me slowly and closer until there were nearly no spaces between us.

"Wh-what? No.." I said, nervous at the closeness of our body. I hated it. It made me feel more and more insecure. Was he blind or something? He obviously noticed my fatness. I looked down, feeling embarrassed.

He tilted up my head with his finger, and we looked at each other. I could feel my self blushing.

He tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear and he caressed my cheek.

"Do you want to go out with me?" He said suddenly.

My eyes widened. He was totally blind.

"I..I.." I stuttered, not knowing what to say.

How could this guy would want to go out with a fat chubby girl like me? Was he blind? We just met! Why now? Why so suddenly? But then again, who wouldn't want to go out with this guy? He was gorgeous. He was the only guy who had the nerve to talk to a girl like me. Without looking embarrassed. Not caring about what people think, like the last time we were at the hallway. He was acting as if I was not fat. Like i was normal.

After what felt like an hour of being speechless, he finally broke the silence.

"If you've decided, let me know," He said. "I'll see you later, beautiful," his mouth twitching. He walked away, chuckling, shaking his head as if he was confused.

I stayed frozen.

What. The. Hell. Was that.

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