A Hate To Love

f i v e

I woke up with a good feeling. The heavy feeling from yesterday was lifted from my shoulders. I got up from my bed and walked towards my mirror. I stood in front of it and looked at myself.

I remember the days I hated the way I looked. I would describe myself as ugly but I slowly learned to love myself. I started to see myself in different lights. I smiled to the person in the mirror, a strong woman.

"You're beautiful, Blaire. You're strong and wise. You can do whatever you want to."

My mom taught me to do this. When she first told me, I laughed at the idea. I didn't see how this would help me with my confidence but I decided to give it a try. Who knew it would actually help.

An hour later I was out of the door and in my car. It was time to help people with their teeth.
I thankfully didn't have to face the dilemma of having to find a parking spot anymore. As a working dentist at the practice, I got my own private parking spot at the back of our building.

When I walked into the practice, nobody greeted me. That was strange, normally people are so cheerful here. I greeted our secretary but instead of getting a greeting back, she gave me a disgusted look. I had a bad feeling about this.

I walked into my office and saw a red rose on my desk. Under the rose laid a note.

I'm sorry

Who could this be from? I'm sorry. What's the person apologizing for? At that moment Jack walked in.

"Good morni-" I started but was cut off by Jack.

"Please save it. I'm dissapointed in you, Blaire. I saw you as my own daughter. Why would you say something like that about the place you work at? Please gather your belongings and leave. I'll send your last paycheck." He didn't even look at me.

"I don't get this. What did I do? I only wasn't here yesterday because I wasn't feeling good which I know you understand. We all have those days." I gave him a hopeful look. I couldn't afford to lose this job. "Please Jack. Tell me what I did wrong so I can fix it."

"It's not fixable, Blaire. You saying how we pressure our patients during their appointments and how you think we don't deserve anything because we don't do our work properly. How could you say those things about us? I thought we were a family. We welcomed you the moment you graduated and were searching for a job." Jack looked at me with disappointment in his eyes.

"I never said such things. Where did you hear that from? The person is lying. Jack you know me, I would never say such things." I felt my tears rolling down my cheeks. Who would do this?

Tane. He probably did this.

"I thought I knew you, Blaire but when there's proof. I'll chose proof over words." With this he turned around and walked away.

I need to fix this. I wish I had a best friend to call and ask for advice. I grabbed the few frames I brought to my office as decor with me back home. Once I got to my car, I saw another rose with a note.

I warned you, rosa

I didn't know whether I wanted to cry or laugh. He's out there trying to ruin me for what. Only because I didn't spread my legs for him? Pathetic. I got into my car and drove back home, where I was safe.

I parked my car and grabbed the two roses and the notes. My body felt heavy like it just could collapse any moment. I changed into my comfortable clothes and made some tea to calm myself.

I sat at our dinning table and grabbed the newspaper. Seeing what was on the front page made me choke on my tea.

Blaire Marston telling us the truth about dental practice TAC .

In the article was written how I hated working there because the people treated me badly, what Jack told me and at the end was recommended to never go there.

Once again I was in tears. He actually did it. He was slowly ruining everything I worked for. I give up on this stupid game he was playing. Now I realize what kind of power he really has. I have to stop this before it gets worse. I grabbed my phone and texted Tane.

You won. Congratulations. I hope you're happy on making me lose my job. - Blaire

It probably sounded childish but I couldn't be bothered anymore. I wish my mom was here to comfort me but she was in London or maybe that's better so she wouldn't see what a failure I am.

I turned my phone off and got into my bed.

I just want to be alone.

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I hope you guys liked this chapter. It's still all new for me this writing but I do enjoy it and that's the most important thing to me.
Do what you enjoy doing.

I want to wish you all a happy new year and may 2017 be a good year for us all.