A Hate To Love

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"Tears are the summer showers to the soul"
- Alfred Austin

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The next day I woke up with puffy eyes. I felt like I lost everything but I couldn't give up. I'll just try to find another job somewhere else. I sat up from my bed and looked at my phone. I need to start fresh with no Tane in my life. I grabbed my phone and took my SIM out.

I still didn't get what the point of what he did was. I honestly did nothing wrong by rejecting him. I wasn't some doll to play around with. If he wanted a one night stand, he could've gone to a bar. I need to forget about him.

With a puff I got out of bed and walked towards my bathroom. In the mirror was a woman who lost the shine in her eyes, a woman who rejected a man and got paid for it. I bit my lip to prevent me from crying. I opened the tap and washed my face with some cold water. The water felt refreshing on my warm skin. It gave me a feeling of a fresh begin.

A new start. That is what I need.

The house was quiet except for my steps down the stairs. It felt so big and empty without my mom. Oh how much I miss my mom. I was disturbed from my thought by the door bell.

Who could that possibly be?

I unlocked the door and saw a single rose laying on my doormat with an envelope. I looked around but saw no one out of the oridinary. I picked the rose with the envelope up and walked towards my kitchen. I put the single rose with the other two roses, which I had put in a vase with water. I sat down and opened the envelope.

But rosa, this is just the beginning

I closed my eyes and took some deep breaths. If this was just the beginning, what will he do next? I'm not sure if I wanted to know. Why did I bring this upon myself? If I only had said no to him back then, I'd be at work right now with no worries.

Suddenly I remembered the words my mom once told me. "Sometimes we regret decisions we've made at that moment but later on we'll appreciate them because that decision will learn us an important lesson from it." But what could I possibly learn from this?

No, I need stop having these negative thoughts and get on with my day. First thing to do, buy a new SIM so I got ready and headed towards the mall. I was soon finished with buying everything I needed and headed back home. Once I was at home I installed my new SIM. Next thing to do, find somewhere new to work.

An hour passed by and I only had found a few places. Soon enough two hours passed by and I had only found a few more. Within an hour I had called all the place to ask for a job application but once they heard my name, they'd either hang up or tell me that they didn't need any new dentists. I wasn't surprised by any of this.

What did I do to deserve this? Tears were rolling down my cheeks. One by one they dripped down my face onto my notebook, blurring the lines I wrote. I soon started crying out loud, tasting the saltiness of my tears.

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If anyone saw Blaire, they'd probably think she had lost a loved one. But it was the pain of losing oppurtinities you've worked hard for. The pain of failure after giving everything and receiving nothing. Her pain could only be outed through the release of tears, flowing down her face like a river.

A few miles further a man was sitting on his chair in his office. The feeling of regret started filling him but the feeling of reject and anger was stronger. He was so blinded by those feelings that he didn't realize he was hurting an innocent woman. He stood up from his chair and walked towards his window, looking down into the city.

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I basically didn't have any motivation to study so I decided to write a new chapter, which is actually bad but oh well.

So what do guys think of the way I ended the chapter? I had this new idea to end each chapter like that to see what they're both feeling and doing.