Enough (ft EXO Sehun & EXO Lay)

15

Nana

"Why am I here?" I asked Sehun, sighing.

I was so frustrated and confused right now. I thought it was only few hours but people keep telling me it has been 5 months already. Why do I can't remember anything? Why is this happening to me?

"Calm down, baby. The doctor told me you were under a shock. And I told the doctor, we were fine that night. What happened to you?"

His face showed that he was really worried about me. He held my hands tightly as if he was afraid of letting me go.

I closed my eyes as I was really dizzy and opened it back. He was still holding my hand.

If only he knew it was because of Lay, I wonder about his reaction.

"Go away." I said, quietly.

I have no strenght anymore to speak. As if someone was squeezing my brain.

"I don't want to leave you alone." He tried to hold my hand but I quickly yanked it away.

"I'm, I'm just tired." I pursed my lips into a thin line as I stared into his eyes.

"Baby," He called me. It was very slow but I managed to hear it.

I bite my inner cheek to hold myself back from crying. I had enough of crying but I couldn't stop. Not when someone who was as sincere as Sehun was comforting me.

"I'm sorry because I've been too harsh on you. Trust me, I didn't mean all of those things. I-" He told me.

He paused when he was about to burst into tears. He looked up at the ceiling for a minute before he looked into my eyes again.

"We can fix this, Sehun." I said to him although we both knew it wasn't really convincing.

Being a relationship sometimes doesn't only require love, it requires tolerance, commitment and reassurance. The feelings may fade but the commitment I had for Sehun and for this relationship was a real thing.

I might not or might still in love with Lay more than Sehun but, it was Sehun who had been there for me throughout my lowest. How can I neglect him when I was at the top? I can't. I would never betray and ditch Sehun.

"Alright, love." He said quietly. His voice was calm yet I knew that he wasn't at peace at all in the inside.

Tears was pooling around his eyes. He was still holding back and I swore that was really painful for me to look at.

"Come here." I patted on the empty space beside me on the bed. I pulled Sehun's arms so that he would lay on the bed with me.

Sehun lay on the bed beside me quietly. He didn't say anything. I leaned my head against his chest and wrapped my arms around his waist tightly.

"No matter what happens, I swear I'm not going to leave you." I whispered to him quietly before I was drifted to sleep in his arms comfortably.

***

THE NEXT DAY, I was surprised to see Lay already sat on the sofa beside my bed. He smiled at me as soon as we make an eye-contact. I looked around to find Sehun and he wasn't here. He must had went home to change his clothes.

"Are you alright?" He asked me. Smile didn't disappear from his face as he looked at me.

I didn't answer him. I looked away and tried to take the button to call the nurse before he stopped me. I wanted him to go away.

"Nana, don't do this to me. Stop making it more difficult." He told me.

I swore that wasn't something I want to hear while I was still sick. He was the one that was making this situation becoming more difficult.

He held my hand but I pushed him away. I stared at him and I was sure he knew that I was serious about not wanting to have him in the room.

"Get out, Lay. I don't want you here. I don't want Sehun to think of anything about us. Just, get out." I said to him sternly.

I didn't even bother to look at him. Why he couldn't understand that the love or whatever that we had were nothing now because I was someneone's girlfriend and he was someone's fiancee.

I was pissed off knowing that he could do this behind his fiancee. He was still chasing me, his ex, while he was happily engaged with his beautiful fiancee.

"Let's stop now, Lay. You know I love Sehun. Please don't ruin my happiness because of your stupid greed." I spat before I pressed the button to call the nurse.

Lay was still standing there. He smirked at me. "You know your feelings better, Nana. I'm not the bad guy here. You are the fake one who is pretending as if you're deep in love with your damn boyfriend."

"Dream on," I stared at him for ths first time in a while.

And I found something that still shines in his eyes when he looked at me. That, make me trembled in fear. I hate myself because I was doubting myself right now because of this engaged guy in front of me.