Memory

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by ElaineStrickland

by ElaineStrickland

m not going to lie; after a few drinks my memory goes to shit.

I remember:

- Having 3 or 4 champagnes (probably more, but I just do not remember)

- Going on one of the rides twice in a row

- Refusing to drive the bumper cars, I don’t really like driving, but I was a passenger with a few other people a couple of times

- Eating a plate of the bbq dinner that was put on

- Speeches.. & That’s it.

I don’t remember leaving there, how we got home to my friends, going in her place at all or dropping all my things there except my phone and grabbing my car keys. I don’t remember climbing in my car and the thought processes that made me conclude I wanted to go home.. I HAD to go home. My friends apparently tried to stop me, I dont remember, but I was stubborn. I was going home and I got in my carto so so.

The next parts of my memories are literally just flashes.

A roundabaout. Hitting something really hard. An airbag hitting me in the face. Nothing

Someone being there and telling me to get out the car because they had to get me home. I managed to get out my car, in theirs and they took me to mine. I couldn’t get in. My house keys were in my car. I knocked on my housemates window door. He wasn’t there. I tried to get in a few of the windows. Nothing. I rung him and he said he’d be coming straight home. I fell asleep on the deck chair outside by the pool. He woke me up and told me I need to wake up and go inside to bed. I couldn’t stand up, it hurt too much. I was in pain so he helped me up. I don’t remember getting to my room or in bed.

I woke up to police officers standing at the foot of my bed with a breath tester. They breath tested me and said I need to come back to the station to have another breath test done. They told me to get dressed and a female officer waited in my room while I did so. I did my best with the pain and all, but I refused their help, I must have been in the wrong and didn’t deserve their help.

They drove me to the station, did a breath test and asked me questions about the incident, but I didn’t know. I couldn’t answer with the truth when I didn’t know the answers. I was confused. I was tired. I just wanted to sleep. They gave me papers, told me I had 2 charges and a court date then told me they were taking me to the hospital; I needed to be seen to. They made some jokes about the pain I’ll be in, in the morning and kept saying how they should have finished their shift a while ago. I apologised. They took me into the emergency department at the local Hospital, answered the nurses questions then left me.

I still don’t feel I slept. Constant people were around asking questions, taking my blood pressure, and inserting a drip. A neck collar was administered, spinal scans were done and I was cleared. There was still severe pain though in my back on the left side. I couldn’t sit up let alone move. Ct scans were requested for my back and abdominal area. My right arm joint was burning and when I rubbed my eye to clear the tears and attempt to keep my contacts somewhat clear, I felt pain on my eyelid.. An old familiar pain I had felt once before – beaten up eye damage. The nurses acknowledged I must be in some severe pain; would I like some pain killers? I refused though. I was stupid and reckless. In my mind I deserved nothing but to suffer.