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Lucky

Throughout the entire ordeal I was told multiple times I was ‘lucky’ to be alive. Some days when all I could do was lay there hating on myself and thinking how stupid I was to make such a mistake, I’d think I was a piece of shit who shouldn’t be alive. How was that lucky? I almost wished I hadn’t survived.. And if I’d hurt; or even worse killed someone else? I would not have been able to live with myself. I almost cry now thinking about it.

I was a rough estimate of approximately 4 times over the legal alcohol driving limit. I went through a red light initially then on through a round-a-bout at a speed of 80-100km/hr. I completely mashed up my car, the entire back lifted up, and deployed both airbags. With that impact I should have gone through the windscreen. I didn’t end up flat on the road however and actually WALKED away. The police, the judge, my family and friends all couldn’t believe it. I definitely couldn’t and still to this day cant.

I made a mistake and survived. I got low as low and somehow picked myself back up. I openly admitted my faults and have tackled the consequences head on. The accident, was exactly a year ago today. In this year I think how this accident, despite being one of the worst things to go through, has changed me, shaped my outlook on life and taught me to appreciate even the smallest of things.. One day you could wake up and it all be gone.

I’m a big believer in everything happening for a reason. It may not make sense to us at the time, but eventually when you take a step back from a situation and look at it as a whole, you see the things you learnt and take them into the future with you.

No question about it I was bloody lucky. If you saw me on the street; met me in person; this incident is the last thing you would of thought I’d caused and been through. Trust me; I get it all the time. My time obviously wasn’t up though and I survived for a reason. I still don’t know what my purpose is in this life, but with this second chance and new appreciation of life I honestly believe I am a stronger person and couldn’t imagine where I’d be if it hadn’t happened.

All I can do now is share this experience; educate others even. Tell a story from a real life situation. What happens, the thoughts and feelings you experience and how the power of the mind can make all the difference. How its thoughts and processes can really affect you mentally and physically; help and hinder. This was a shit situation, I wouldn’t wish it on my worst opinion, but I am thankful for this new outlook on life from it and hope I can inspire others to learn that everything is what you make it. The good and the bad, you just have to take whatever is thrown at you and tackle it head on.