This can't be so

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Ivy had come and gone, the babies taken away. I feel completely empty without them, I want my children back and it hasn't even been 6 hours. I feel as though I am sinking into the mattress instead of laying on it, drained of everything, emotions, memories. Everything possible.

"Kiddo, you really don't look good..." Tree trailed off, he sounded really far away despite being so close to me.

"Let's just hurry up and get... back to J." It felt wrong to call it home, without my children it can never be a home! Dozing in and out of reality I can't help but ignore the surroundings around me as Tree guilds me along the corridors and into elevators before finally helping me into a car. I want to stay with Ivy and the children but J would get suspicious. A strong hatred develops inside me towards the crazy stupid clown, I wish I never fell in love with the sociopathic killer!

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"Hello, kitten." Ignoring him I walk straight past him and inside. I have missed being in a house instead of being stuck in a hospital bed. I wish I could have Hazel and Ace cradled in my arms while I show them what should be their new home. I make a beeline for the nursery, the single crib, the soft toys, rattles, filled chest of draws. Everything we would need for one of the babies, just duplicate it and we would have my precious babies room all set.

"Pooh? What's wrong?" I feel extremely irritated by the stupidity of his question. Turning around I feel the colour rising in my cheeks.

"What's wrong? What's wrong?! Do you really want to start this discussion?! You wanted your daughter and son fucking killed! Well guess what, they're not dead you sociopath! Someone is looking after them! I'm not letting you kill my children! I'm going to leave you! I hate you! I'm going to start a new life with my children and they will grow up knowing their dad is a criminal and wanted them dead! They will hate you as much as I do right now. If you don't let me bring the children home I will leave you and you will not find me!" I scream, tears streaming down my face. I can't stand him, I know he won't let me leave but I will find a way to get away from him.

"They're not dead?"

"Is that all you can say?! They are humans you monster! You're sick!" I slap him hard across the face, my hand tingles from the force. Holding a hand to his reddening cheek I see sadness in his eyes, for the first time ever I see genuine sadness. It's like the effects of the acid are wearing off from the children. Oh god... What if the babies received some of the effects?! Will Ace have green hair? Will Hazel be platinum blonde and more pale than normal?

"Harley?"

"What?" I choke out, my throat dried up and sore.

"I never asked for them to be killed..."