My Cowboy with Benefits

Chapter 5

Luke and I have been in our little arrangement for a little over a month now. I can feel myself falling in love again. I don't know how to stop it. It doesn't matter how much I try to fight it, my heart doesn't seem to listen.

Tonight, we're going dancing at the rodeo club. I honestly can't wait. The las time I was there was when I ran into Luke on that awful day. This time things are going to be different. I won't have to worry about finding my boyfriend cheating on me with my sister. Luke would never do that. Not that he's my boyfriend or anything.

I don't even know what I'm feeling anymore. I try to distance my heart, but it's like Luke's trying to capture it. He keeps doing all these sweet things. He'll buy me flowers or chocolates or give me a neck or foot rub just because he feels like it. It warms my heart, but at the same time it infuriates me. I told him how things were gong to be and he just didn't listen.

Maybe being with him wouldn't be so bad. Things could work out for us. I'm just afraid to try. I'm afraid that if I do give him my heart, he'll take it and break it like Wyatt did. It's already hard enough that I trust Luke. If I were to fall in love with him, I could lose myself again.

The door opens and Luke walks in. He comes to sit by me on the couch. I kiss his cheek.

"Ready to go?"

"Yeah."

We walk outside to his truck. He helps me up, as always.

As we make our way there, I can't help but think about how happy I've been this past month. I don't even know why I'm fighting it anymore. Maybe I should just give in. Then again, I don't want to risk my heart again. I don't think I'd be able to go through that pain again.

"We're here. Let's go."

I didn't even realize that Luke had gotten out and opened my door. I should really start paying attention to what's going on around me more.

I get out of the truck with help from Luke. We make our way inside. I snag a table while Luke goes to order our drinks. He comes back shortly with two beers.

"Here you go, Mags."

"Thank you."

"Welcome."

We chat for a little bit. Then we decide to head to the dance floor after we eat. It's the main reason we came here.

We're in the middle of dancing to our fifth song, when they walk in. I freeze on the spot. Luke stops and follows my gaze. He turns back and takes my face in his hands.

"Are you okay? Do you wanna leave? Baby, we don't have to stay here."

Ignoring the way his sentiment makes me feel, I shake my head.

"I'm fine. I'm not going to let them ruin this night. I've been waiting all week. I'll be fine."

"Are you sure? I don't mind leaving."

"I do. I will not let them ruin me anymore than they already have. I want to stay. Please?"

"Okay. We'll stay."

I sigh in relief. "Thank you."

"You're welcome. Anything for you, Mags."

My heart melts some more. He just keeps amazing me. Wyatt would have demanded we leave. Luke is willing to stay because that's what I want to do. I can't help but to give another piece of my heart to him.

A slow song comes on as soon as we go back to dancing. It's "The Dance" by Garth Brooks. Throughout the entire song, Wyatt and Rachelle are staring at us from their table. When the song ends, just to really set them over, to prove that I've moved on, I lean up and give Luke a kiss. This one nearly knocks me on my ass. Every time I kiss him, I feel like it's just never enough for either of us. I don't even care what anybody thinks of us.