Falling For A Vampire || H.S.

Chapter 17 - I Need You.

Jossie’s POV:

I was sitting on the old couch in the living room watching TV. Well not exactly watching it because I was busy thinking and chewing my lip nervously. I waited for Harry to return, safely, and tell me that Jaden is up to no harm. That he don’t want to start a fight. But I knew people better, maybe because I had experiences with bad people in my life. They never give up. If they want something, they take it and none can stop them or stand in their way. And I think Jaden is one of those guys, who never surrender. I waited for what seemed like forever, lost in my thoughts until I finally heard the front door open. I quickly ran for the door and found five miserable boys walking in, each with bright, red eyes. I suddenly knew what happened between them and Jaden. Actually, I knew that this would happen, but I wanted to deny. I wanted to believe that Harry will try his best to protect me from Jaden. But I guess, Jaden isn’t planning on giving up.

“He insists on killing me, right?” I asked in a low, hushed voice. They all looked at me with a sad expression. Harry reached for me, to comfort me, but I moved away.

“I-I need sometime for myself, to think.” I said as I ran upstairs. I felt Harry following me.

“Jossie?” He said. I turned around and faced him. He was a complete mess. Since I arrived here, Harry was always a mess. But this time, it was different, he looked devastated.

“Harry please. I need to be alone.” I said before running to Harry’s room, our room, and locked the door behind me. I lied down on the large bed, thinking of what would happen to me. I never thought about death through my whole life. Well, I felt death once, when Harry beat me so hard. But I never lied down in my room and thought about it. The whole thing scared me. How will it be? How will it feel like dying? Will it cause me a lot of pain? Will I feel nothing at all? I don’t really know. Death is something deep, very deep. And I guess a little girl like me would never really understand it. But somehow, I accepted dying in this situation. If it will save the ones I love, the boys and Harry, then I’ll die knowing I saved them from a fight we never know what its result would be like. I shivered as I imagined one of the boys being killed. And I was about to cry as I thought about Harry dying to save me while it was my entire fault. I don’t know how was it supposed to be my fault, maybe because I walked straight in their lives and made Harry love me. I don’t want anyone carrying the consequences of my mistake! None especially Harry. And I know that if I die, Harry will die from inside. He’ll be torn apart. Just like how Emily’s death affected him and maybe more. I don’t want to die and make him die from inside after me. I refuse to die and leave Harry alone. I refuse.

I was lying down on the bed thinking until I heard a faint knock on the door.

“Can I come in?” I heard Harry ask. Even his voice seems devastated.

“Come in, Harry.” Harry opened the door and walked in. He lied down beside me on his back and looked at the ceiling, just like me. He intertwined our hands and held mine real tight and I felt the blood not rush in them from his tight hold, but I didn’t mind it. All I wanted now is to stay with Harry for as long as I can because I don’t know if I’ll be able to see him, feel him, hold him, touch him or even stare at those beautiful eyes of his for so long as death was waiting for me.

“You remember my promise for you, Jossie?” Harry asked as we stared at the ceiling.