NEW SUN: Renessme Fan Fiction

Chapter 4: Bellas POV

*sorry for the absence, won't happen again ! *

On the way to my cabin, I thought about the following things:

1) if I had any morals on cheating

2) how I was hurting my family

3) if I really wanted to leap into this pool.

Honestly, I never thought I'd cheat on my husband. That just wasn't me... But being with jacob was being me, so didn't that cancel each other out like negative four and positive four?

If my daughter and husband ever found out... I can't imagine hurting them like that. Nessie! She loved Jacob and was destined to love Jacob... but what if I was too?

And did I really want this? I don't think I would kiss Jake if I didn't. Jacob....

I opened my door, which was thick and heavy, but was easy for my strengthened newborn arms. "Heeelllllooo?"

"Over here," Edward called. "But I would look in your bedroom too. A certain wolf is in there getting Renessme's textbook or something."

"Jake?" I called, walking into my bedroom. Jake was bent over, searching for her textbook.

"I know where she left it, Jacob... want help?" I offered.

"Bells," He breathed. I could tell that he was trying to contain himself...

"Edward is in the other room," I reminded him, my voice soft so my husband didn't hear me.

"I know," Jacob nodded.

"Here's her book," I said, opening my desk drawer. The heavy textbook felt like air as I pressed it into Jacob's hands, and I felt a spark. Mmm. Calm Bella. Keep your head.

"Thanks," Jake replied, his voice breaking. He was about to explode too... eeerr, why did Edward have to be here?

Bella! That's your husband in there! The husband who bite you! Who's the father of your child! You can't wish he was gone just because you are getting a bit bored with married life... the pleasures of married life to a vampire grew old quickly... when you never grow older or change, how much can life realy change?

Jake shot me a smile as he exited my room. Mmm. Wonderful.

Maybe I couldn't physically change anymore, but my life could, couldn't it?