Diva

4

*Luke*

"I'm sorry," I whispered as I realized that Anna was crying. I wasn't sure what I had done or said to cause it but I also knew that she was lying when she blamed the tears on the movie.

So then why was she crying?

That question was running through my mind for the rest of the movie and the entire car ride home. The boys could tell that something was up and even texted me about it in the car but didn't say anything about it in front of the security and managers we had with us, which I was grateful for. I knew that I'd have to tell them about our history and that's not something I want everybody to know, it still makes me feel vulnerable and hurt.

As soon as I gently shut the hotel room door behind me the rest of the boys, who had already walked in, stopped talking and turned to stare at me.

"So what's wrong? And don't you dare say nothing because we all know it's something," Ashton demanded.

"Fine, I'll tell you," I agreed. Thinking of a way to get out of it, I added, "It's kind of a long story though."

"We've got time," Michael announced, flopping down onto a bed and watching me, waiting for the explanation to start. Damn, I was hoping they wouldn't have the patience to sit through a long story.

"I-I know Anna."

"Yeah we saw you talk to her tonight, you practically tackled Ashton to be able to sit next to her," agreed Calum.

"If you want me to tell you this then don't interrupt. And I meant that I actually know her. We lived next door to each other from year two until she moved away when her career started to get bigger. When I was 13 and she was 14 we started dating and I was totally in love with her. I haven't seen her since we broke up."

"What happened?" Ashton questioned sympathetically.

"She moved to LA when she was 17 to be closer to the business. I went to say goodbye to her the day she left and she dumped me. The next summer she came back to film in Sydney and we hung out a lot. I thought that we had rekindled things a bit but I guess I was wrong...

*Flashback*

"I have to leave tomorrow, Luke," Anna whispered sadly.

"I know but at least we got to spend the summer together. I really missed you while you were in LA."

"I missed you too."

"We should have never broken up," I mumbled. Not having Anna in my life for over a year now has been miserable. After all, she was my best friend long before she was my girlfriend.

Anna sighed, "Luke, we both know that's not true."

"Not true? Anna, I love you so much. I don't care how far away you live I'd rather know that you're mine and that you miss me too than be here completely alone, not even knowing if you feel the same way about me as I feel about you."

"Luke-"

I interrupted, unable to wait for her probable rejection. "I love you, Anna. I'm so in love with you that it hurts. And it's ok if you can't say it back yet. Just be mine. Please."

"Luke, I-I can't. My acting career is just taking off. I'm set to be the next big thing and you, well, you're you," Anna explained.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"You're a nobody, Luke. You're a scrawny 16 year old in a wanna be band. I'm an 18 year old rising star and you're a loser. We're part of two different worlds. Do you understand now?" She said harshly.

Those words really hurt. I'm a nobody? Sure, most of the world didn't know my name but shouldn't being her childhood best friend and first love count for something? And that age difference comment really bugged me. She had been 18 for one month, I would be 17 in a little over two. The entire time we were dating we constantly told people that the one year age gap was nothing to us, that we were similar enough maturity-wise that the gap might as well not exist.

As Anna turned to leave, I grabbed her wrist and pleaded, "Anna please. Don't do this to me. Please." My voice came out weak and broken but that's exactly how I felt. I was shattered by the person I loved most in the world, the one person that I thought would always be there for me. And as I stood there feeling like a vase thrown against the wall, Anna didn't even look back at me upon hearing my pleas.

"Goodbye, Luke," she said coldly, shaking my hand off and stalking away.

As she walked out the door and to the car waiting for her outside, I whispered, "I'll always love you, Anna. And one day we will be together for real. I promise." I couldn't live without her, my Anna, my love. So I decided that my so called 'wanna be band' was going to make it big, then we'd see what Anna thought about me. I know that's not the best way to deal with a break up but what can I say, grief makes people delusional.

As she left, I collapsed to the floor of my living room, my body shaking from the power of my sobs. I have been in love with her for almost ten years and I may never see her again.

*End of Flashback*

"That's the last time I ever saw her in person until tonight," I finished, looking up for the first tie since I started to see the boys looking at me with combinations of shock, confusion, and sympathy.

"So she's the ex? The reason you haven't been serious with a girl since we started the band?" Michael asked, connecting the two stories before the other boys. I solemnly nodded my head in confirmation.

"Damn, I'm sorry, mate. That's rough," Calum said and came over to hug me. Soon enough the other two were joining us in a big group hug, something Michael was probably thrilled about since he always tries to cling to us but we get annoyed and make him get off.

"So you want her back?" Ash asked with a thoughtful look on his face.

"That would be nice but if I can't have her back I'd at least like to know why she did what she did. It was straight up cold, which isn't a part of her personality. Unless she changed more than anyone ever thought possible when she moved to LA, she's not the diva people say she is. I could even see it in her face tonight when she ran into me. She's pretending to be a diva but why?"

"I don't know but I have an idea how you can find out," Ashton replied with a devious look and started explaining his plan. His absolutely genius plan.

So here's part 1 of the double update I promised...we'll see if I manage to come up with a part 2 😂

Thanks for reading this and also thank you so much if you read 30 because it just hit 1k and I'm really really happy.

It was my first ever fanfic and I honestly didn't think anyone would read it let alone like it so thank you :) and if you haven't read it shAME ON YOU (jk I still love you)

Ok so I hope you enjoy this chapter I worked hard on it (while skipping school after my AP Chem exam) <3