Hello, Mr. Sanity | Chanbaek

Chapter 10

My mind lingered, tracing the shape and forms of the ones that used up all of my thought process. My friends that I had once thought of friends, my parents who no longer visited me, and then Baekhyun. My doctor. He was my sanity. My Mr. Sanity. I knew it now. Those feeling that clouded over my heart. It was something strong that most people described as love. But it couldn't possibly be love because love is just a myth. But the feelings I hold tell otherwise. They tell a different story than the ones that others tell.

My head shook at the thoughts as I instantly sat up, my eyes moving to the perfect form that walked in.

"Baekhyun.." I murmured, a small smile inching up my face as I stared to the male before me. He was in his usual attire, a clipboard at hand.

"Hello, Chanyeol." His soft voice called out, sending excited shivers down my back as he spoke. His lips curled up into a playful smile as he sat in his usual seat.

"What are we talking about in this session?" My voice piped up, a little too over excited.

"You're usually not like this." Baekhyun giggled, "You used to complain that you didn't need a doctor."

"I've changed. I've changed a lot." I nodded my head quickly.

"I can see that, you smile more often now. Or am I just that funny looking?" Baekhyun joked.

I instantly shook my head, "You're not ugly at all, Baekhyun. In fact I think you're rather attractive.." My voice trailed off in the end, my own cheeks rising up with heat as I stared to Baekhyun. Like I was, his cheeks were a crimson as he flushed before clearing his throat.

"Well thank you, Chanyeol. You're not so bad yourself." He sent a teasing wink before looking down to his clipboard, "Yesterday I went to talk to your parents and your friend. They each gave me some photos that hold a lot of memorable moments in your life. I want you to explain what you feel as soon as you see them. Okay?"

I only nodded my head at his words.

"Great! We'll start with an easy one. I got this one from your mother, childhood memories." He slid the picture towards me.

I looked down at it as I studied the edges, noticing how beat up it was. Then I looked to the photograph itself. I bit onto my bottom lip as I saw a younger of myself with my sister. It was a touching moment. It really was. But there was something wrong with the picture. Me. I was in the picture. That was the reason the whole picture was screwed up. I was there. Nothing could ever look nice with my form there. It just didn't work that way.

"What do you see? Tell me how you feel." Baekhyun's smooth voice echoed through my ears as it made its way towards the center of my heart.

"I..I see a monster.."

"Why do you think that?"

"Everything I have ever done in this world was never the right thing. Everything I have ever said was never the right words. Everything was wrong in so many different people's point of views. So i must be the messed up piece in the puzzle. I'm the monster no one wants to get involved with."

"Chanyeol, you know that's not true."

"If it isn't true then why do you always sit across from me than instead of with me?"