Hello, Mr. Sanity | Chanbaek

Chapter 13

"I've heard from the nurses that you've been acting a lot better, Chanyeol." Baekhyun spoke, his head tilted towards my figure.

"I guess. Maybe you were right. If I have positive influence than I can change." I hummed.

"See, what I say has some meaning." He smiled.

I nodded, "Well yeah, a lot more meaning than you think it does, Baekhyun. Your words stick with me, for more reasons than you think."

"So, because I'm so influential, you keep my words with you to motivate you?"

"I guess you can say that. Yeah, let's go with that. That seems accurate enough."

I looked down for a moment and shut my eyes. I couldn't get much sleep. After Sehun's words, I stayed up thinking about the doctor I had fallen for. Did he ever feel the same way I did? Did he ever stop what he was doing in the day and think about me? Did anything remind me of him?

Did he ever watch Beauty and the Beast and think maybe that's Chanyeol and I, maybe I love him. Did anything ever go like your thoughts at all?

I took in a deep breath and shook my head. That's not the questions I need to be asking. But maybe Baekhyun does have some answers.

"Baekhyun?"

"Hmm? What is it, Chanyeol?" He hummed and looked towards me.

"Could you ever love a monster?" I bit onto my lip, chewing on my flesh in nervousness.

"Could I ever love a monster? I guess a rational person would say no, but I'm mostly not very rational. So I would say yes, because I can understand people easily and can understand what someone is feeling. That's my job. So yes I could love a monster. Could you love a monster, Chanyeol?" He asked me back the question.

"In terms I am the monster, but I could never love myself. Never ever. Not with how I have been. So my answer is no, I could never love a monster." The flesh of my lip fell from my teeth as I talked, my eyes captivated onto the smaller male.

"You keep referring to yourself as a monster, why is that? I understand that killing a couple of people may stand a monstrous action, but that doesn't necessarily make you a monster. There's good in you, Chanyeol. I see it everyday that we talk. I see the light in your eyes, the small sparkle that gleams every time you talk about something you love. I see it all. I pay attention, Chanyeol. I see every little detail that goes with you. The way you bite your lip when you're nervous, the way you glance around the room when you're in thought or have nothing to say. I see it all. And from what I've seen. You're not a monster at all. You're more like a little puppy who was abandoned and doesn't know how to act properly. You're a little puppy who needs to be nurtured back to health and learn to love again. That's what I think at least."