NEVER NAMED

drowning

I sat on the edge of the building with my legs dangling off the edge, swaying with the gentle breeze that comes by every so often making a shiver go up my spine at the cold feeling. I was so high I could touch the sky if I were to reach my hand up, but I was drowning. All the emotions...problems...drama.. its swallowing me whole, drowning me in the darkness of its waters. The waves I create in my attempt to get away are pulling me down deeper as I reach my hand out to try and get a hold of something, anything. I wanted to get away, but I only grabbed at the air as it finally pulls me under. 

I watch the light fade as I get pulled deeper into the darkness of the icy black water. When I finally close my eyes and give up someone grabs my wrist, pulling me back to reality every time. As I stare at the cement below I can't help but think about how it would feel to 'slip' and fall down all 6 stories. Would it hurt? Or would it all end before I even realize what's happening? A voice is coming from behind me, talking to me but I don't hear what they are saying, I can only stare at the hard ground below as I feel everything star bubbling to pull me under the water once again, but I can't let that happen. If I do this I have to do it while I'm above. While I know who I am and what I'm doing. 

There is a hand on my shoulder but I can't feel it as I stand up on the edge, prepared for what I'm about to do next. As I go to step off the edge I start to hear the voice from behind yelling at me to not do this. They beg for me to go home, to live for them and for myself, but that's the thing. I can't. I take a step off building only to start to panic as the water comes flooding past my walls. I reach out for the thing closest to me, trying to save myself from falling...but it's him... I grabbed him. The only person that was keeping me alive and I took him down with me instead. I wrapped my body around his with my back to the ground in the last attempt of showing some sort of sanity. Then it hit. We hit the cement hard and that was it. I was swallowed up by the darkness. I was free.