Unfathomable

Again

I stretched reminiscing everything that happened last night. Making my way over to the bathroom, ready to start my day I approached my toothbrush.

As I was applying the toothpaste I happened to glance in the mirror followed by a sigh. I touched my busted lip and soon moved up to my swollen eye.

"This shit getting old" I said to myself quite above a whisper.

I knew brushing my teeth was going to sting due to my lip but I didn't care, I was used to this. After finishing brushing my teeth I made my way over to the shower, turning on my water, grabbing my wash cloth, and a new bar of soap. I was beyond tired of waiting and today was my day, this was the last time I allowed myself to be beaten or even disrespected. I groaned as the hot water touched my bruised skin.

"Baby you okay?"

"Uh yea" I yelled stepping out of the shower.

I walked into my closet trying to find something to wear.

"Nah, Nah, Nah, What the hell is this even doing in here?" I said grabbing the red bottoms I thought I told her to return.

When I found something and got dressed, I threw on my Infared 6's until I was caught off guard by a smell. It wasn't just any smell but... A smell I couldn't interpret.

I walked downstairs seeing another big breakfast with a rolex sitting on the table along with a note. I chuckled opening the note...

Dear, Boo
I'm so sorry for last night, I'm trying. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me.
~Love You

I threw the note away and fixed me a plate. After eating I put my dish in the sink, as I was about to turn around I felt hands rap around my waste. I quickly removed them and turned around.

"You don't look happy to see me."

"I'm not"

"I'm happy to see you"

I laughed "You happy to see me huh?"

"Yea"

"Then you must love seeing me like
this" I pointed to my injuries from last night.

"Baby I said I was sorry, no matter what I do you seem to never be happy"

"Yea, you right" I said walking away.

"Bae?" I kept walking.

"How long you going to keep this shit up?" I asked.

"What?"

"Awe cut the bs, every night you put yo' hands on me and act like it ain't happen" I said making my way upstairs.

"OMG I SAID I WAS SORRY DAMN!"

"Fuck your sorry" I said calmly.

She began to cry and I let out a sigh.

"My apologies" I said trying to hold her
but yet again she punched my chest.

"Bae" I said trying again.

"Get away from me, I swear niggas ain't shit" she said, kind of saying that last part to herself.

"Baby-"

She punched me in my jawline cutting me off and hitting my busted lip. It didn't hurt at the moment but I knew I would feel that shit when I woke up.

"I'm trying to comfort your crazy ass and here you go swinging" I yelled at her.

"Whatever" She said getting up and going downstairs.

"You not leaving" I said following her.

"Cause you just going to come back here and do the same lil routine you just did today" I said looking around the house for her.

A wine glass went flying and hit the door. Next thing I know, as I'm turning around I see one being chugged at me, hitting me under my eye but above my cheek bone.

"SHUT UP!" She yelled.

I tried to ignore the pain that the wine glass caused but it truly was slowing me down.

"GET AWAY!" She screamed as I was coming closer.

She swung aiming for my rib but I gently grabbed her wrist and backed her up against the wall.

"Calm down" I said giving her a firm shake.

"I can't do this, look at me I need help" She began to cry.

"Listen, you don't need help you just-"

"Need to leave" She said cutting me off.

"Nah, you-"

"Need to leave" She said cutting me off again.

I exhaled. "Mya, you don-"

She kicked me in my balls and began to run. I fell to the ground in a swift motion, grabbing my shift. The feeling of diarrhea overcame my stomach, and everything I saw became a black hole.