Unfathomable

Christmas Eve

Roman

Opening the trunk, I sat the handful of bags on the ground before going around to the backseat to get the tree out. Sitting the tree up next to the bags I took a step back looking at the tall frame and the amount of bags I had to carry. I spent about a good 2 minuets contemplating rather I needed to make 2 trips upstairs or not.

"Nahh", I said out loud while slightly shaking my head.

Grabbing the handful of bags I then hugged the tree and lifted it slightly above the ground. I knew I looked like a fool but I damn sure wasn't about to take 2 trips there and back. Speed walking to the elevator I sat the tree down and pressed the 'up' button. I'm over here breaking my back for someone who don't even appreciate me, I laughed to myself as the elevator buzzed. Picking the tree back up I stepped in, sat everything down and pressed seven. My fingers were already burning like hell from these damn bags. As soon as I drop this shit off imma head over to J.R's crib cause I can't stay over here much longer. I've had enough Mya for one day. When the elevator stopped I prepared myself for the long walk down the hallway. Our apartment was at the very end of the hall, suite 727. Adjusting my grip, I grabbed the bags in a more simpler way giving my finger tips a break. As I stepped out of the elevator I gathered my 'speech'.

"Here's the bags, you gon' head decorate and when you done call me so I can put up the tree.", I thought to myself.

She's probably gon' want to argue about me not helping her decorate but I honestly don't give a fuck at the moment. She can cry and complain all she wants but at the end of the day I'm still going to J.R's crib. Sitting the tree down along with the bags I grabbed the key out my pocket and unlocked the door.

"Mya, I got the bags you can decorate now", I said while picking the belongings up and stepping inside.

"Mya", I called out again.

"What?", she answered softly.

I watched her as she walked out from our bedroom, "I got the bags so you can decorate now"

"You ain't gon' help?", she replied.

"Nah, I'm finna head to J.R's place", I answered.

"J.R?", she asked while shaking her head up and down.

"Yea", I stated as I licked my lips.

"Could you give him sumn for me?", she questioned while walking to the bedroom.

I frowned becoming curious.

Coming out of the bathroom she threw our 3 year promise ring at me, "You ain't shit", she stated while getting closer.

"All this time I thought I had a real one, somebody that was gon' hold me down"

"Our 4 year anniversary is in 2 weeks and you got me out here looking stupid. Buying you shit and showing you love when I can't even get a thank you.", she continued.

"Girl, what the hell are you talm bout? Don't say thank you? I thank you every 3 seconds of my damn day but it seems like you again wanting to argue over sumn that's not accurate", I said calmly while picking up the ring slipping it in my pocket.

"After picking up every single little thing you wanted which seemed to take forever in the store and stopping in the gas station to get yo egg nog AND carrying this shit all the way up here to the 7th floor, you still not happy.", I stated bluntly.

Tears began to roll down her eyes but she quickly wiped them away, "Get yo shit", she said while walking back into the bathroom.

"Mya, you not kicking me o-", I was cut off by a roll of toilet paper hitting me directly in the nose.

Holding my hand over my nose and my mouth I leaned on the wall trying to gather my anger that was building up. Waiting for the sting to go away I finally turned around to Mya who then slapped me. Now leaving me no choice but to get aggressive, I swiftly grabbed her wrist and pushed her down on the bed climbing on top.

"What the hell is yo problem?", I questioned raising my voice.

"YOU'RE MY PROBLEM!", she yelled right back in my face.

Now moving her pinned arms above her head I grabbed her left wrist with my left hand which already had her other wrist. Taking my free hand I squeezed her cheeks making her lips imitate a fish.

"Who you talking to like that?", I said seductively while licking my lips.

She remained quiet and continued to stare. I could feel her chest rise rapidly inferring that she was nervous.

"That's what the fuck I thought", I said letting go of her face.

"Now, do you want to sit down and talk about it like normal people or you still tryna swing?, I asked irritated.

She shook her head in shame, "Use your words", I said softly.

"I wanna talk", she said lowly almost under her breath.

"Okay then", I slowly let go of her wrist and stood up.

Holding my hand out I waited for her to grab it. When she did I lifted her from the bed onto her feet. Surprising me I was embraced into a hug.

"I'm sorry", she started.

Not saying anything I just hugged her back. I'm getting sick of these mood swings. Ending the hug I grabbed her hand and led the way to the dining room table.

I pulled out a chair as I waited for her to take a seat. As expected she sat in the chair that I didn't have pulled out for her. Exhaling I sat down and scooted myself in.

"You okay?", I asked.

"Yea it's just, every time I feel like things are going good they get messed up", she answered.

I looked over her, tracing her thick frame.

"Explain", I stated.

"It's just work, it's starting to make things a lot more complicated than it used to be.", she explained.

"You wanna talk about it?", I asked sincerely.

"My boss is giving me more work than usual and it's stressing me out that's all", she stated.

"It's not really anything to talk about", she continued as a weak smile crept upon her face.

"I swear", she assured.

"Ight, you tired?", I asked licking my lips.

"Yea, it's been a long day", she replied.

Standing up from the table I swooped her out of her seat and carried her upstairs to our bathroom. I stared at her as we began brushing our teeth but she kind of ignored me. Walking to bed and laying down, I followed after her.

"Goodnight", she said softly with her back to me.

"Goodnight", I responded gripping her waist.

I guess tonight I wasn't going to J.R's. After all that shit I talked she still manages to keep me on lock. I waited til she was sound asleep to slip the promise ring I bought back on her finger. Opening my phone with my free hand I texted J.R that I wasn't going to make it. I figured that the random text I had was from someone that got a hold of my number somehow.

Me: Who this?
7737468447: Erica
Me: Gas don't drop til 2/13
7737468447: I didn't contact you for that
Me: Then ion know why you texting me 
7737468447: Do you even know who I am?

Not bothering to care I blocked the number. I don't play with muh fuckas like these. Texting randoms is a fast way to get popped out here. I powered my phone off and placed it on the charger. Gotta long day ahead of me tomorrow. Kissing my babygirl goodnight, I closed my eyes.