Kiss Me (JcPenny fanfiction)

Chapter 9

Jc's Pov *at Panera*

Jenn started yelling at me and I just couldn't take it so I slapped her..

I ruined everything between us. She probably will never ever talk to me again. I screwed everything up. I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

Once they left Marissa came up to me and slapped me and broke up with me for hitting a girl aka Jenn.

I seriously didn't mean to slap her but it looks like I did it anyway. Well looks like I'll get even more dirty looks by my roommates.

I drove back to the O2L house and I walked in and everybody started yelling at me. I heard Kian yell "you what you should just get out and never come back" I tried to ignore it so I just walked past them into my room. I laid on my bed just staring at the ceiling. I started crying. Did Kian really want me gone?

I felt like dying. Anyways nobody wants me here.

Jenn probably wants me dead.

Kian absolutely hates me since Jenn is his best friend

Connor probably will just stop talking to me.

Ricky will probably just give me dirty looks.

Sam also probably wants me dead. Trevor probably doesn't even know what's going on. I don't think anybody told him because supposedly he is "too young"

I went into the bathroom and grabbed the closest sharpest thing by me, my razor..

I put my wrist up and. Slice. There's one cut. Slice. There's two cuts. Slice. Ouch that's deep. Slice. That's four. Slice. Ouch it hurts but it feels so good. I should do this more often.

There was blood all over my arm and sink. I rinsed my arm and bandaged it. Good thing it's winter so I can wear long sleeves so nobody will see my scars.

Even if someone did see them they wouldn't care at all.

I laid in bed again and just stared at the ceiling and that's when my phone beeped and there was a twitter notification from Jenn.

Oh yeah did I tell you I only get Jenn's tweets sent to my phone..?

The tweet said

@Jennxpenn:

I love @sampottorf and he is the best boyfriend ever !!<3(: love you babe :*

Love? Boyfriend? Babe? I can't take this anymore so I threw my phone at my wall and it all shattered.

Then Ricky came in and said "Jc what happened? Are you okay?" I thought he would never talk to me.. "Ricky why are you talking to me? Shouldn't you be yelling at me saying that I shouldn't of done that?"

I was actually surprised! "Look Jc what you did was wrong, but you're human. Humans make mistakes." I agreed with Ricky that we make mistakes.

"Well yeah I guess so but I slapped her and now everyone hates me except you"

"No don't say that Jc. Well I am going to go to sleep now it's 2 am. Time went by fast. Goodnight"

"Mmkay bye Ricky thanks for talking with me, goodnight".

~ONE WEEK LATER~

Of course I was still depressed about everyone hating me. It sucks. I haven't talked to anyone in probably about a week and I haven't been out of my room at all.

Ricky has tried getting me out but I always refused to. Nobody was home and it was just me. I haven't eaten in a week, I haven't spoken in a week. I haven't showered in a week. I haven't done anything except sleep and just stare at the ceiling. Sam kept secretly tweeting about me and I was tired of it.

The door rang and I was surprised I went to go open it and it was. Jenn..? "Jenn look I'm really sorry I didn't mean to slap you at all I feel really guilty and now ever-" she stopped me by pulling my my hands and she started pulling my sleeves up. I moved my hands and walked back slowly. "Jc let me see your wrist.. Please.." Jenn slowly whispered.

I slowly pulled my sleeves up and there it was. I had about 13 cuts on my arms. Jenn started crying and hugged my tightly. I hugged her back and tried to calm her down. It was nice having her in my arms.

"Jenn what's wrong?"

"Did you do all of this because you slapped me? Because if you did I am so so so so sorry Jc. I'm fine now I promise."

"It's not just because of that everyone hates me. I haven't been out in 1 week and nobody talks to me except Ricky and Sam keeps secretly tweeting bad things about me! I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE! But just know i love you with all my heart" I started crying and I ran into my bathroom and got all the pills I had in my bathroom..

I was going to try to commit suicide..

I can't take all of this

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CLIFFHANGER !! I'm sorry if you don't like the idea about Jc cutting and trying to commit suicide and stuff but I think it's a great idea for this.

Questions Of The Chapter:

#JcPenny or #Jam or #Macys

And what do you think is going to happen ?! Anyways thanks for reading and I will update very soon ! And you should thank @awk0leslie for telling me to update ! (: