Kiss Me (JcPenny fanfiction)

Chapter 18

Kian's Pov

After I left Andrea's apartment I felt really guilty and I started crying. I sat outside the door and I heard things being thrown and screaming and crying.

That made me cry harder because knowing that I was the reason that she was like that made me feel really bad. I punched the brick wall and instantly regretted that. I saw that Jenn came towards me and all I did was hug her and apologized over and Over but she was confused.

I walked away from her and told her that Andrea really needs her right now and she soon heard the noise coming from their apartment so she ran in. I ran to my car and drove away quickly.

I drove to the house and ran inside and texted Alyssa saying she ruined my life and to never talk to me again. She was confused but probably figured it out. I tweeted "I'm so sorry" , "I'm so fucking stupid" and things like that.

I was crying and I rarely ever cried but this time was different, I was so angry at myself for making out with Alyssa. I was angry at myself for saying all of that to Andrea. I was angry at myself because I pushed Andrea and she hit her head.

She is never going to forgive me and she is never going to talk to me again. I really screwed up this time. But i guess its time to move on with my life. At least now i'll hopefully have a stronger bond woth Sam. Sam.. I really miss him.. He was always there for me when i had bad days. He always knew how to cheer me up which was amazing. Sam is like a brother to me. I never want to lose him because he means a lot to me.

I arrived at the house and instantly got in. All of the guys including Sam and Trevor were over and they all saw me crying. I tried running to my room but Sam instantly came over and hugged me. I started crying harder. Wow I feel like a girl right now but I didn't really care. "hey baby it's alright okay? Don't worry everything will be alright. I'm here for you." Yes you read that right Sam called me baby, he only calls me baby when I'm sad. No he's not gay it's just a best friend type of thing you know?

Sam told me to go upstairs into my room and we both went upstairs. I sat on my bed and he sat at the end of it. "Kian what happened? What's wrong? I don't think I've ever seen you this sad ever. It hurts me seeing you like this because you're my best friend actually like my brother. I want you to be happy. Now what's wrong?" I looked at myself through my phones camera and my eyes were all red and puffy and I had tear stains on my cheeks. I felt like shit.

"I-I-I broke up with a-Andrea..." Sam looked really surprised. "wait why? What happened?"

I felt like crying again just thinking how I treated Andrea. "I went to her apartment because I was gonna give her this.." I took out the box from my pocket. "I was gonna give her a promise ring but then I saw her gasping for air and I saw her mirror and phone all smashed and at first I was confused but then understood when she asked me who she was.. Who Alyssa was.. we started arguing and then I told her that she was the reason you and me drifted apart and then I told her that Alyssa was a great kisser and she started sobbing and she yelled at me to leave and she was pushing me out of her room and I got mad and told her to not touch me and she ignored me and pushed me towards the door and I got really angry and pushed her into the table and she hit her head.."

Sam looked surprised and sad at the same time. He was about to say something but I interrupted him and said "worst of all I told her that I fucking hated her.. I really didn't mean that Sam.. I didn't I really love her.."

Sam got up towards me and hugged me. "Aye bro don't worry hopefully you two will forgive each other and you will get back together. I'm gonna go to sleep becauseI had to wake up at 5 am to get here. night man , love you." "goodnight Sammy boy love you too and thank you for being there for me.. also please don't tell the guys I don't want them to hate me especially Trevor.."

Sam nodded at me and left my room and I sighed. I looked at the promise ring that I was gonna give Andrea but I screwed up. I should have never made out with Alyssa at the O2L show in Chicago.

I saw Andrea tweeting and I had to go over to hers and Jenns apartment. I grabbed the promise ring, my keys, and my phone and went out to my car. I arrived at the apartment and got out of my car.

I knocked on their door lightly and Andrea answered. She was about to close the door but I put my foot it and said wait. "what Kian I'm pretty sure you made it clear that you hate me."

I took out the promise ring and handed it to her and she took it. I looked down and quietly said, "um here you can keep this.. I came to your apartment earlier to give you this promise ring but then you know what happened... I'm so sorry Andrea I still love you.. I love you so fucking much and it hurts to see you so sad and especially since it's all my fault. I also don't expect you to forgive me and come back to me. It's fine if you never want to get back with me but Um I'll always be waiting for you. Even if I have to wait 10 years that's fine.. Oh and it's fine if you tell the fans what happened. I deserve to get hate after what I did to you.." I looked up to see her reaction and she had her hand over her mouth and she was crying and I saw she had bandages on her wrist and I started crying also because I was pretty sure she cut because of me.

Jenn came over and looked confused to why I was here. "don't worry I was just about to leave.. um Andrea I guess this is goodbye forever.. so goodbye I love you.." I was crying harder and was about to leave but Andrea came up to me and hugged me. I hugged her back tightly and we broke apart and I kissed her on the lips one last time and kissed her bandaged scars. The love of my life is now gone.. "goodbye Kian.."

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Don't hate me because the last chapter and this one doesn't include jcpenny but I feel like its important to include this so yeah.. anyways I hope you like this chapter and I hope it made you cry !

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