NUMB

HURT

I want a real love.
I want what other real families have.
I want the same feeling every other girl feels.
I want a normal family.

I have been trying,I really have.
I have tried to forgive and let go but I just can't.

It feeds me. It feeds my inner anger and rage.
I feel the fuel on my heart.

The smiles I give a dead
They have never been real an I don't think they will be real in a long time.
But I crave for this weight to be off my shoulders.

I want to let all this go.
I want to feel the weight off my shoulders
I want to be free.

This is my only way out.
This is my only escape.
These are not just words,this is my life and this is the pain in my heart if I have one.

This is my pain:-(