Dont rescue me

Chapter 1

Authors note
Thank you for giving this book a chance. Some of the things in this book relate to my personal life. So please don't have a crap load of hate comments. Further a do chapter 1.
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[^^Annabelle above^^ along with the outfit for her first day.^^

Water is running, I look down I see a drop around 100 feet down. I keep trying to swim back but something grabs me sending excruciating pain up my leg.

I open my mouth to scream water starts pouring in. I feel myself falling off the edge.

A scream wakes me up I look around before realizing it was my own, wiping sweat from my forehead. Nice job Annabella good way to have the cops called again you fucktard. I look at my clock 1:39. Ugh so much for a goodnight sleep.

I get up heading to my bathroom to splash water on my face. I look up in the mirror and startle myself. I'm 4 different kinds of fucked up. Heading back to my room my stomach growls.

"Ok buddy lets get some food." I rub my stomach no I'm not pregnant I don't get hungry often and when I do I talk to my stomach since I can't talk to people.

I put a shirt on as well as pants. I grab my wallet and keys on the way out the door. I accidentally bump into my neighbor Mr. Lackinton. "Oh sharpies. Sorry Mr. Lackinton. I was going to get something to eat."

He chuckles. "It's alright Belle is everything alright? I heard screaming again."

"Yeah I'm fine, nightmares again ya know? Memories of the past." He gives me a pity look.

"Do you want a ride love? I'm heading to the store the Mrs just woke up really sick I need to grab some meds anyway." I give him a small smile and a small hug.

"No sir I have my motorcycle which I love." He shakes his head.

"I know I'm not your parent or any type of family but Gillian and I love you and want you to be safe, I don't want you to ride this late at night alone. You can get hurt and you look so tired. Please let me give you a ride."

"Are you sure sir I don't want to be a bother?"

He laughs. "What have I told you about calling me that young lady? Please call me Henry. Oh and Gillian want to know of you would like to come over for the holidays instead of spending them alone."

I follow him out to his truck. "I would love to Henry you know I love you guys. You're like family."  I slip into his old truck and we head to the store.

I run to the candy aisle grabbing some gum, then to the chip aisle grabbing  Funyuns, lastly the drink aisle for Dr. Pepper.

Yummy I start doing a little dance. I hear chuckling, then a low growl I turn around slowly, my mouth opens slightly, my eyes locked with beautiful green eyes. I hear Henry yell for me which brings me back to reality.

Mr great God of hotness tries to say something as I run to back to my neighbor.

I scan all of my items including the medication for Gillian before Mr. Lackinton can stop me, then I feel a hand on my shoulder the touch makes me want to melt, I look up to see piercing green eyes once again.

"I can get that beautiful." He pays for the stuff and I squeak trying to tell him no. Henry grabs our stuff and drags me out of there I look behind us and see Mr. Sexy's turn eyes turn black.

I turn around quickly and hop into Henry's truck we head home and I thank him. I go back to my apartment, ripping open my Funyuns eating them while taking off my shirt and jeans after tossing my keys to the counter.

I crawl in bed with my chips turning on my radio. All the sudden the radio turns off I lay there for a minute thinking, thinking of everything, my moms death, my father leaving us after 6 years of being abusive, my scars, being alone 100% completely alone.

I start crying I can't breathe, I get up opening my window trying to breath in the cold air, I still can't breathe at this point I'm hyperventilating, I run into my bathroom.

Trigger warning

Ripping open my medicine cabinet I grab my box of razor blades, quickly grabbing one I drag it across my skin and I can finally breathe. Slowly one after another I start to feel again. I take a deep breath, while rinsing them off, closing my eyes, I smile, I feel so much better, then I remember today is Monday.

Shit, it's the first day of my new school I had to transfer because I had a panic attack at an assembly, I look at the time again it's 4:00 am I only have 2 hours before I need to be up.

I wrap my arm up to bandage it, plus it'll look like I have a sprained wrist. I lay back in bed, slowly drifting back to sleep.

Beep
Beep
Beep
Beep

Ugh I don't wanna get up 5 more minutes. I roll over falling off the bed, I curse at myself for hitting my face on my nightstand and then the floor.

I get up slowly, that's gonna leave a mark or two. Ugh exactly what I need the first fucking day of school. Brushing myself off I head to the bathroom after grabbing the first thing I saw. I hop in the shower washing myself off then just stood there for a few more minutes getting a grip on my anxiety.

I get out slowly wrapping a towel around my body. Realizing I forgot undergarments I let my towel fall while heading to my dresser. I see my favorite pair of black lace bikini underwear and a red lace bra quickly putting them on then slipping on my dress I picked out.

I look at the time, then start on my make up after putting on boots. I grab my keys my bag and wallet on the way to leave for a long first day.