Bullied Into Depression

It's Starting

After seeing the video I immediately texted some of my friends from school to see if they had seen it

Text Message:

Me: Hey Bella.

Bella: Hey Joy...

Me: Did you see that video of me on Instagram?

Bella: Yes, practically everyone saw it.

Me: Oh... I'm crushed.

Bella: I know. That's so mean... Like you never even did any thing.

Bella and I talked for about an hour about how mean it was. I decided to get off of Instagram and watch some YouTube until it was dinner time. I went to my favorite YouTube's channel, Tyler Oakley, and watched some of his videos for about an hour. After watching maybe about 19 videos I went to the trending part of the YouTube page. Another instant regret. The #3 spot on Trending was the same video of me on Instagram. I didn't want to go to school tomorrow, but tomorrow was Friday so I could cry all weekend without getting interrupted.

A few hours later I looked at the time on my phone and saw that it was 8:33PM. Dinner was never ready apparently. I wanted to see if dinner was actually made so I walked out of my room and down the stairs. The lights were off in the kitchen and my dad and my two brothers were watching TV on the couch. I found it weird that nobody else was around but I just ignored it. I went to the fridge to make myself some food. I was very good at cooking for a 13 year old. I was a better cook then anyone in my family so I felt special. I decided to make macaroni for myself. Two minutes into cooking it one of my brothers, Thomas, got up off the couch and asked me if he could have some of the macaroni too. Of course I said yes because he was my brother and that's what family does for eachother. Besides the macaroni that I was making I had two brothers and two sisters. My brothers names were Thomas and Noah. My sisters names were Ashley and Casey. Thomas was the youngest one in our family, he is 9. Noah is 16, Casey is 15, and Ashley is 19. I had no idea where my sisters or my mother was when I was making the food. While I was waiting for the macaroni to cook I checked the whole house and I only found Casey. I found Casey in her room sleeping but Ashley and my mother weren't around. I went back downstairs and finished making the macaroni. I put some in a bowl for Thomas and I. I sat down at the table with Thomas while we talked about racecars and SpongeBob SquarePants. We usually talked about those things. There really wasn't anything else to talk about because he was 9 and I was 13 so it was hard to know what to talk about. Thomas was probably my favorite sibling though. He was really adorable too... He still acted like a 5 year old and still had that little squeaky voice.

After finishing my macaroni I cleaned Thomas and my dishes. I then took Thomas to bed because it was late for him. After sending him to bed I decided to get ready for bed myself also. I brushed my teeth and changed into my rainbow pajamas. I loved my pajamas... I kind of felt like a 5 year old wearing them but they reminded me of my sexuality. I am bisexual and I was very proud of it. I had come out already and was accepted so I was pretty happy about being accepted. I liked boys more than girls though, just saying. After getting into bed and listening to rock music for an hour I finally fell asleep.

"Boom, boom beep." My alarm clock woke me up and it was time to get up and go to hell... I called school hell now because I was currently getting bullied now by the popular bad kids. I got up out of bed after sitting there thinking about Tony and also about that it was Friday. I walked over to my closet and got out a blue shirt with some red joggers. I changed into those clothes and then went down stairs for breakfast. It smelled like bacon in the kitchen. Ashley was making bacon for all the kids in our house. She had made a whole bag so there was enough for all of us.

I said a "Goodmorning" to everyone and sat down at the end of the table. Ashley finished with the bacon and gave everyone 6 pieces each. Thomas and I loved bacon so we asked for more but we unfortunately ran out. After breakfast, Ashley took everyone of us to school.

When I got to school I jumped out of the car and gave Thomas a hug and told him to have a great day. I always told him that because I had a special bond with him and I love him the most. Ashley drove off and I walked into school. I went to my locker and opened it and put all the things I didn't need yet in there. While walking to first period, which is Art class, I saw people pointing at me and laughing. I pulled off a fake smile and walked into Art class. I saw Bella, which was my bestfriend and sat down next to her.

"Hey Joy!" Bella said, standing up and giving me a hug. I said "hello Bella." back and took a seat next to her. The bell ring and the Art teacher, aka Ms. Tomster, took attendance. We didn't do anything in Art except for watch Art videos on YouTube. Next period was Science. I went to science, did a close read. 3rd period was English. We read books for the whole period. Then it was lunch...

Lunch had to be the worst 30 minutes of my day. I sat next to Bella which was nice, I mean we always sit together but this time she hugged me a lot and told me it was going to be okay. 20 minutes into lunch I got up to use the bathroom. I had to use a separate bathroom then everyone else. When I walked into the bathroom I went into one of the stalls and did my business. I walked out of the stall and washed my hands and fixed my hair as well. When I walked out of the bathroom I saw Tony out of the corner of my right eye. He ran up to me and pushed me. I looked at him and he said to me "Hey boy why you gotta use that bathroom huh?" I looked at him and replied with "it's none of your business." He laughed at me and one of his friends came up to me and took out his phone and started to record me. Tony got closer to me and pushed me back again. I hit the wall with my back and the back side of my head as well. I got dizzy and then Tony hit me on the nose. I fainted down on the floor. I woke up to the sounds of people laughing at me and I ran out of the lunchroom and to my next period. The next few periods nothing happened accept for people pointing at me and laughing.