Bullied Into Depression

Jack

I got up out of bed and saw Jack with his face on the floor, still sleeping. I thought it was so cute. I was kind of starting to catch feelings for Jack... He did call me cute a few times and I called him cute a few times too. I was questioning everything in the world to find out if he liked me. We did hold hands at the mall and hug a lot.

After looking at Jack for a few minutes he woke up and looked up at me. "Let's go out to eat today." Jack said with the best smile I had ever seen in my life.

His smile was perfect. He was perfect. His smile was everything. He is my everything.

I replied with, "where do you want to go eat?" He picked himself off the floor. "How about we just see what restaurants are in town near our house." he said. "Sounds like a good idea... Ill bring like $60 okay?" I said. Jack replied with an okay but also said he didn't have money. I offered to pay for him.

As Jack and I walked downstairs to get breakfast Thomas jumped on me. I luckily didn't fall down, I just was surprised and I screamed. Jack and Thomas both laughed at me. I felt stupid for screaming and embarrassing myself. But when I heard Jack's laugh, I melted inside. His laugh was so cute.

Thomas jumped off of me and stepped in front of Jack and I. "So who is this?" Thomas said pointing at Jack.

I was about to reply when Jack interrupted me and said, "Hi, my name is Jack. I'm Joy's friend." I smiled at Jack and then looked at Thomas. "Yeah. Thomas meet Jack." I said pointing at Jack. Thomas said a warm welcome to Jack and then went upstairs.

We got downstairs and I decided to make pancakes for breakfast. I looked in the freezer... There were no pancakes. "Jack we have no pancakes." I said making a sad puppy dog face.

After being sad for 4 minutes I decided to make pancakes from scratch. After mixing all the stuff I needed to mix I put in food coloring... Just to make the pancakes gay and rainbow and all that stuff.

I served the pancakes to Jack. I gave him a red, green, and yellow pancakes. I took the blue, purple, and orange pancakes. When I served the pancakes to Jack her started to laugh. He then said something about how gay I am and how gay he was. I mean we both weren't fully gay but we were kind of gay.. If that makes any sense.

After finishing our rainbow, gay pancakes, we started to walk downtown to go shopping... We decided to eat at one of the places down town after shopping and probably spending all our money on TØP and Melanie Martinez merchandise. I had brought $80 instead of 60 in case we spent a lot on stuff at the shops.

After entering the down town area we went into a store where they had soap, perfume, Colone, and bathbombs. I felt like I was in heaven. It smelled so good in there and I love soap and stuff like that. Jack made me buy him a 6 dollar bathbomb that was rainbow. I bought it for him and then bought myself 3 bars of soap... The soap I bought was all the same smell. It smelled like boys, like I don't know how to explain. But it smelled like Jack. Jack wore perfume and I wore colone everyday. He was more girly than I was. We were both girls before but I became more manly then girly and Jack stayed girly a little bit.

We left the soap/perfume/colone/bathbomb store we kept walking down the street. We stopped at a haircut/hairstyle place. I had wanted to dye my hair for months and my dad always promised me that we would get my hair dyed when we go to a haircut place. I asked Jack if we could go in and get my hair dyed. He of course said yes and we walked in.

We had to wait a little bit of time because there were only two chairs and two employees and there were two customers getting haircuts. Jack and I sat down on the waiting chairs and waiting for about 19 minutes. Finally the older man said to me, "okay it's your turn kid."

I got up and walked over to the man and sat down on the chair in front of him. "So what would you like to get today?" he said. "Can you dye my hair red?" I said. The man said yes and then told me it was going to cost 17 dollars. I was lucky I came into the place today because it was a 75% off on dying your hair or whatever.

The process of dying my hair took about an hour. When it was finished I paid the man and then told him a huge thank you and then left with Jack. Jack complimented my hair and said so many things nice about it. He said things like, "red looks good on you" and "red brings out your eyes, even though your eyes are brownish/blackish."

I felt like Jack was perfect. To me he was perfect. I wanted to make him mine. I had an idea for later tonight after we ate dinner.

After walking around for 3 more hours it was finally dinner time. We were also a bit hungry from walking around for a few hours. We finally stopped at a restaurant that looked fancy inside so we decided to eat there. We sat down at a booth. I sat next to Jack because I didn't want to be lonely on the other side of him.

After we ate Jack and I both paid for the food and then we sat there and talked for a few hours.

"So do you like anyone?" Jack asked, poking my face.

"Yeah I like this boy." I replied, biting my lip. 

Jack bit his lip as well and then looked into my eyes.

"I like a boy also. He's really cute." Jack said as he smirked at me.

I laughed a little bit for some reason. Don't really know why I just randomly laughed. But it made Jack laugh too.

It was really awkward after our conversation ended. I feel like either Jack or I had made it awkward.

I cleared my throat, "you want to come back to my house for another day?" I asked.

"Yeah. Of course." Jack said and smiled.

We got up and left and walked back to my house. It started to rain as we were a block away from my house.

Jack put his hands over my head to protect me from the rain. I really didn't need that to happen though. I liked it when it rains. I look cool with the wet hair. I thought I did...

When we finally got to my house we went to my room. I immediately crashed onto my bed. I had to admit that I was tired.

However, today was good.

I was happy for once.

Jack made me happy.