Beautiful

Chapter 9

Phil's POV:

I wasn't saying I was in love with Dan so he would wake up out of pity, anger, or fear. No. I really had fallen in love with my flatmate, Daniel James Howell. I scoffed in amazement. How? I guess tragic times make you see all of the astounding things in an individual you never really regarded, like the color of their eyes, the sound of their laugh. I didn't want to live in a place without him, but now, there was a chance I could lose him for good. I couldn't let that happen. I had to be determined, and he had to be as well if he was going to vacate his nightmare. Then, out of nowhere, I heard a mumble escape his lips.

"Phil, if you can hear me, is that true?"

"Yes!" I exclaimed, holding him. "It is! I love you with all my heart!" I let go a moment and did something crazy. I held his hand. What a rush. I added in more butterflies in my stomach as I played with his hair. Such an incredible shade a brown, just like his eyes. I couldn't wait to see them flutter open.

"Phil..." he mumbled again.

"Dan!"

Suddenly, he took a turn for the worse. He held his face in pain, then he used both hands to clench his stomach.

"Ow..."

"Aw, Dan, what's happening?" I whispered. "I'm so sorry." I buried my face into his chest. His breathing pattern escalated, so I let go a moment even though I didn't want to, desperately hoping he would slow down. Since I was standing up, I looked around his room and saw something I hadn't noticed. His suitcase was out. I unzipped the main compartment. Clothes, electronics, and chargers were scattered everywhere. I scanned his desk. A note?

Dear Phil,
I'm sorry if I sounded like a jealous jerk yesterday. I just really missed you. It's not your fault. I don't have many friends, and you're my best friend, so whenever I get to spend time with you, it's my favorite part of the day. My whole week, actually. I'm leaving temporarily until you can tolerate me again because I don't want you to hate me. You can go to Felix's party and tell them I couldn't make it. I love you, Phil. Please forgive me.
Dan

I broke down sobbing at this. He felt terrible. I could see it. He missed me, and I acted selfishly. He was right, I wasn't around. I'm surprised he doesn't hate me at this point. The only reason he was considering leaving was because of our well being, not his. When he wakes up today, I'm going to remind him how much I love him. Yes, it's going to happen today. He can do it.

We can do it.