black butler sebastian x reader

chapter 9 - turmoil

~ ahhhh~ you feels as though you could dissolve into the water. You slowly piece together everything that horrid man said. It was something to do with illegal weapons being brought in by some strange Korean gang. How horrible, using phantomhive name to smuggle stuff in with out ciel knowing. Some humans are so dirty and think only of the gain. ~ parasites ~ you splash your face and get out to get ready for bed.
Just as you finished your door knocks " you may enter". Sebastian opens the door and you smile. "what brings you so here so late? Is the young lord resting now. He's had a tough day" sebastian smiles and walks on with a pot of tea and two elegant cups on a tray. " I've brought you some earl Grey tea. With orders from the young master to tell you the true nature of the situation at hand"
As you sit drinking the tea with sebastian, he tells you how all the servants were chosen and why. He tells you the goal of the young lord, to get revenge for his parents murder. Up until this point you were very calm and chatty. Then sebastian tells you the true nature of his relationship with the young earl. ~sebastian is a demon !?! ~ you quickly finish your tea, but as you down the tea you drop the cup from shaking.
Sebastian move closer and gently brushes the hair in front of your face. "You look awfully pale, I guess find out the truth of who I am comes as a shock to you " you hang your head down ~ if he knew I was an angel, he'd kill me on the spot ~ you feel a pain on your chest, so you clutch your chest and steady your breath. "My lady, please do not fret for your safty. I will not hurt you or any of the members in the estate. I am one hell of a butler". You can't help but giggle at his play on words. "That's the (Y/N) I know. Always cheerful and beautiful , almost angelic" he lightly stokes your silk hair, shocked by his sudden affection you turn red and flitch away ~ please don't come so close to me, my heart can't handle the ache~ sebastian stands and makes his way out the room " I'm sorry for being so informal. I'll refrain from doing so in future." His face showed how disheartened he was, you couldn't help but feel more pain in your chest.
As the door closed, you throw yourself down on the bed. You can't escape the emotional turmoil. You couldn't handle the butler so close to you or that he was in fact a demon and could kill you in a heart beat. However, seeing such pain in his face and being told you he would never treat you as equal. It brings some tears to fall. ~ his equal. Never~ you bury your head into the pillows as you fight this equilibrium. You sprout your wings to cradle yourself.