Driving Crazy

1. Unexpected

If anyone ever told me that my life will change this much in few months I'd laugh at them. I never expected anything like this. So it all started when my parents informed me, we are going to leave sunny Florida. The level of anger inside me was unexpected. Why would they do this to me? Florida was a paradise. But then I didn't know Canada will be hundred times better. Week after our conversation, we moved out to the little town in Ontario. When we get there, we found out that we couldn't instantly move in to our new house and we were forced to live for a month at my parents' friend's house. Yeah, I couldn't imagine a better last month of holidays than living with four annoying adults. I didn't know them this much so when we came there first, they introduced me to them and their son. His name was Justin. He actually looked really good, he had light brown hair, deep, brown eyes and when he saw me he bit his lower lip. My parents told me before, that his parents have problems with him, that he's really ignorant sometimes and that I probably won't like him but when I saw him for the first time, he looked so innocent. His parents, Pattie and Jeremy prepared bbq and I spent the whole evening talking with Justin. He really seemed to be nice but honestly I was afraid to trust him as I heard so many bad things about him before. Next weeks Justin was really polite, he was helping me a lot. When our parents were doing boring things like watching movies that seemed to be made in dinosaurs era, he was always spending time with me and we were talking and laughing. We had a lot of fun together. Suddenly he started to act strange. He seemed like he was trying to avoid me and I was kinda worried if I did something wrong. I literally thought about everything that I ever told him and thinking if I could hurt him somehow. Few days later we could finally move in to our new house so I could stop thinking about him all the time. Our house was 2 minutes away from Justin's and I was meeting him really often. When school started I realized we are in the same class. Honestly I kinda missed him cause he was such a nice boy and I thought we could be friends but as always it didn't work out. He didn't really seem to care. I also met a new girl. We became good friends. I told her I like Justin and she was really surprised that I know him. However Jen, cause it was her name, promised not to tell anybody. She also told me some facts about Justin. She said she was surprised because Justin is really closed and he doesn't make friends in school. She told me also, that he had problems with drugs. I couldn't believe it. Anyway, after one month me and Justin met on our way back home. We started to talk. He surprised me because I thought he doesn't want to talk to me anymore. But we actually had a great conversation and later we went to my place. Justin needed some help in school work so I suggested I can look at it. My parents were happy to see Justin again after a long time and we had a dinner. Then we went to my room and we wanted to do the homework. Justin was acting like nothing happened before so I thought it'll be better just to forget and focus on this moment we're spending together. We were doing math but it was still super exciting to be with him. I could watch him doing some exercises and I realized how handsome he actually is. His lips were so soft and he had a little mole next to them. He was smiling all the time and it was making me blush. When he was about to leave he asked me for my phone number. I gave it to him and we were texting whole night. Next day in school I was so tired. But it was worth it. Once our teacher asked me if I'm okay and Justin started to giggle. Everyone looked at me then like I was a serial killer. Even our teacher looked strange. I didn't know what's the matter. This day after school, Justin asked me out. I mean he actually asked me if I like ice cream and if I want to go somewhere but let's think "he asked me out". We had a great time together. We were hanging out for next two weeks and suddenly Justin stopped to talk to me again. I was confused, like what's going on. I thought he doesn't like me and I didn't want to force him at all. One day Jen messaged me about 8 pm. She said she saw Justin in one of clubs in town. I asked her where exactly it is. Something told me to go there. I don't know why I cared about a boy that I barely know. But when I get in the club I saw Justin sitting with few guys. I saw they are smoking weed and I couldn't believe it. I understood it was true what my parents told me about him. When he noticed me he immediately stood up. I felt tears in my eyes and I ran out of the club. Justin started to run too. Then I started to run faster but he got me. He said "Y/N it's not like it seems to be!" Yeah it's not like his doing illegal things with older guys. I was so angry, I asked him: "Then how it is Justin? You just needed a pussy and I was at hand right?!" I don't know why I said it. He actually never wanted to do anything like that with me but I thought that it was the reason he wanted to get to know me. Then he said: "Y/N the truth is that I never wanted to play with your feelings!" Play with my feelings? He knows what feelings are? I immediately answered "The truth is that you don't give a fuck about me or my feelings!" I think I looked hilarious. I always look like that when I'm extremely angry and that's why people don't treat me serious. He replied "You sure?!" Boy if I wasn't would I say it? He acted like a kid. "Yes!" - I yelled back to him. I mean he wasn't yelling at me like this much but his voice was stronger than always. I felt like few years ago when my dad was trying to make me feel bad for eating too much candy. "You know I fucking do care! I do since the beginning. Cause you're the most amazing girl I've met in my life and I know there's no chance you'll ever be mine!" This came like a thunder. Be his? "Oh yeah so that's why you don't answer to my messages, and smoke weed?!" I finally said that. I wanted him to know that I don't respect people who do it. "I didn't smoke with them but yes that's why I don't answer. You know why? Cause I know that if I meet you one more time I'll be even more into you. And I can't let this happen!" I felt tears in my eyes. It was just too much for me. "Justin why?" - I said calmly. "Cause you don't feel the same..." - he said. I don't know why I am like this but I felt guilty. "How do you know that? Have you ever asked me?" - I decided to ask him. "Y/N you're smart, beautiful girl and you can be with anyone you want. Why would you choose me?" These words made me sad. He really thinks I'm so ignorant? That I only care about look and I'm looking for a perfect boy? I told him: "Cause you're the one I can talk for hours with and the one that really understands me. And... I miss you..." It was all true. Weird but yes I missed him. I missed his cute voice. His smile. It all made me cry. "Y/N please don't cry baby.. Y/N" - he took my face in his hands and said. "You called me.. baby?" I was called baby for the first time. I mean by someone else than my parents. It felt different from him. "Um sorry I didn't mean to..." - he tried to explain but I didn't need his explanation at all. "Justin there's nothing wrong with that." - I smiled still looking at his face. "So baby, will you please forgive me?" It sounded like the only thing he cared about was me. "Of course you little dork." - I said. "That's good." - he smirked what made me feel butterflies in my stomach. Then he kissed me softly still looking deep into my eyes like he was expecting me to push him away but I wasn't going to. I let him kiss me and we spent the rest of the evening walking on the beach, talking and fooling around. Damn he was so amazing. I was so happy that now he knows we can be together and that I'm not looking for anyone else. He was just that type of boy who could make me feel special in the simplest way.