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Shay x Reader Lemon [ I want a family ] Part 2

"S...Scared?"

Shay's sudden aggressive nature seemed to melt away at my words, looking at my trembling form as tears trailed down my cheeks. The truth was out in the open, a pathetic reason as to not giving Shay what he dreamed about. Not because I wasn't ready or because I didn't want kids, not because I didn't feel the time is right or because I couldn't have one. I was just...too scared.

"Yes" I confessed, the floodgates seemed to open wider at the sound of me confirming my fears. I tried to hide my face in my hands, a sob raking through my body as I tried to push back those gates once more. All other words died in my throat, Shay was just standing there. Dumbfounded most likely, maybe he was shocked. Upset? I had no idea. "I just...." I forced the words from my mouth, swiping away any tears that littered my cheeks. "I...I just...When you first mentioned having kids all I could think about was the trouble it would bring instead of the joy like you thought." I shifted my body slightly, my eyes glued on the floor.

"I thought about how the Assassin's could use the fact that you have a child to their advantage as well as the Templars. I thought about the possibility of you getting slain before or after the childs birth. I couldn't bare....I can't bare the thought of you dying and either never seeing your child...or having our child know you died"  Once the words started coming out more smoothly, it seemed like it could never stop. "I know it's selfish....I've put us through so much trouble because of something I could have easily talked to you about...But I didn't want to ruin your dream of having a family! I couldn't..." I stopped my blabbering when Shay took hold of my shoulders and turned me around to face him. He looked down at my face, a small smile gracing his face. A smile I haven't seen in a while, and just the image of it on his face brought a happy giddy feeling through my body.

"(Y/N)....there is nothing to fear" He murmured, drawing me close to him in a warm hug. I buried my face against his chest, taking deep and slow breathes. Trying to calm my fast beating heart that didn't seem to want to slow down. He rubbed my back gently, whispering comforting words into my ear and slowly easing us toward the bed to sit down. After a moment or two longer of me sniffling and calming down, Shay took hold of my hand and looked me directly in the eyes. "I know...that it's difficult to think about a family with our lifestyle...and you don't have much of a state for what the Templars or the Assassin's do but...I won't let your fears come to pass" He claimed. His voice sounded so gentle yet so stern about it. Like he was so sure about it.

"I will never let any harm come to you or our child. The lad or...lassie...will be protected. I know for a fact his mother will never let anyone touch his little head" Shay said, grinning when I raise a eyebrow and let out a small chuckle. "He?...Shay, we haven't even conceived the child and your already set on it being a boy?" that got Shay's smile to widen, his hand coming up to cup my cheek. "Whether the child be a girl or a boy...I won't let anything happen to 'em...I will make sure to come back every day. Alive and well...knowing my wife and child are here for me." He reassured me, leaning forward to press a kiss to my forehead. "Now...let's get some sleep...we'll talk more about it in the morning" He patted my shoulder and smiled, my head was nodding along while my brain started to process the fact that Shay wasn't demanding a more sane reason that I didn't want children.

After that little talk, we worked slowly into getting to the conversation again this time I though I was able to get myself to actually talk about wanting a child. We talked about what would be needed and where we would need to go in order to have a safer environment for the child. We talked about for hours at times, and other times Shay would just mention it before moving on to something else. It wasn't until we were sure we were going to have a child that we started talking about when.