I know I'm toxic.
I know I hurt others
And I know I hurt him.
We were so close.
I might have loved him-
I don't really know.
I don't know what love is.
I know what family love is
And friendships.
But not real love.
Where you and your partner
Are together and kissing.
Where you hold each other in your arms.
Where it's midnight and you nuzzle their neck
Or at 7 am to wake them up.
I don't know what that's like.
And God wish I did
I want to love and be loved.
