The Thoughts Of The Voices

16: Lovers Ballet

Junior year, a time where things start to get busy. So many people are in relationships, some break up, some hook up. Others study hard and improve their grades. Not me.

I just broke up from a relationship with you. We were once a happy couple, holding hands, kissing, having fun and such. I didn't think a storm would come and destroy everything. It took you away from me, ripping you right out of my arms.

I love you. I will always love you. I can't get over you, I get jealous at the thought of you being with someone else, I hate it but I gotta let you go because you are no longer mine and that's okay, I want you to fly free my beautiful girl. Yet, I can't bare the thought of letting you go sometimes.

I hope you know that you'll always be in my heart my silly girl. Not that your mine anymore. I stupidly let you go, now your the one that got away. I promise I won't ever forget you. I'll tell my future kids about the girl I lost, and the girl I found, their future mom.

“Hey Diana.” You whispered behind me. “Hey Madison.” I said, standing in front of me was a beautiful girl. Wild red hair, crystal blue eyes, a splash of golden freckles adorned your face. “What have you been up to.” You leaned in a little. My breathe caught my throat, remembering all those moments we had together.

‘Please don't do that to me, please don't get my hopes up, because your only going to drown them. I love you , but I can't handle this.’ I gave a weak smile. “Nothing much, how about you?” I said as you giggled and smiled. “Well, homecoming is a few days away. And I was wondering..” My heart drowned the rest of your words out, afraid that it me.

“..If I could get your advice on how to ask this girl I like.” Your voice sent shivers down my spine. “Sure. I have to go to class, I'll see you during lunch.” I gave you a tight smile as I turned away.

Walking down the hall, people either waved or said hello. I smiled back at them. But under all this, I was dying. My heart was broken even more, at the mention of you liking another person. “I was doing just fine before you came into my life.” I mumbled as I arrived to class and sat down near the window.

“In the name of love, please let me stop being in love with you.” I whispered to no one but myself. I felt tears well up in my eyes. Blinking them away, a feeling of loneliness washed over me, while starring at couples near me because I'm all alone in the end. No one is here to stand by my side and tell me they love me.

Then again, I wouldn't love me either.

The end.