The Thoughts Of The Voices

27: Alive

It rattled my bones as my heart stopped for a few seconds. A cold cold feeling washed over me as I realized the funny feeling in my stomach. Butterflies. My palms began to sweat, my heart kept beating like crazy and I felt a warm funny feeling all around my body.

I was falling in love again.

No, no, no, no, no, no, no. Not again, I didn't want to fall in love again. Once or twice  was enough, but three times? Hell no. The first time I ever fell in love, was with a girl named...well, I honestly don't remember her name very well. I met her twice in two parties my family threw. And yeah, maybe it's impossible to fall in love with someone you just met, but I did.

I don't believe in love at first sight, and that's not how it happened. My god brother's girlfriend introduced me to her niece at the party since I was quiet and she wanted me to meet new people. Almost all of my friends know that I'm not shy person, but I can be in unknown places. Anyways, we talked for a while and I realized me and her have a lot of similarities between us, and I remember my palms were sweaty and I felt warm and super nervous, her smiles made my heart melt and I always looked forward seeing them. The next time we met, same thing happened, I got nervous and jittery, and my palms were super sweaty.

Thankfully, I don't (at least I'm hoping) have any feelings for her anymore. The next person I fell in love with was Alice. I'm pretty sure I've talked about her in one of my previous chapters. But if I haven't, she's a girl a met and we began kinda going out in secret since she was dating someone. I was a dirty little secret to her, this has happened to me before when someone ended up kissing me and having to keep me a secret. Hee hee, she a very good kisser to the point where my mind is fuzzy every time I try to think about the kiss. But yeah, I fell in love and she broke my heart so I decided to move along with the help of a magical unicorn.

Unfortunately, my feelings for her were still developing, so I can't really say that I fell deeply madly in love with her, but I was getting there. I realize that saying that doesn't really make things better for what I did. But.....maybe one day...if the day ever comes in a few years from now, me and her could catch up and have dinner together and see where the road takes us.

Ah crap, now I'm blushing as I'm writing this down. Moving along, the third person is my now girlfriend. I'm falling in love with her, and I'm kinda scared to be honest. It's been a while since I've felt like this, besides with Knight, (that's code) who took me a while to move on. So I'm scared to do something stupid again (yes like cheating). But being with her makes me feel so alive and happy, it's like I'm on top of the world by her side. I don't think I'd trade her for a the riches of the world, not even for the sexiest girl alive would I do something like that.

>///< Q-QueenAlura signing off.