The Thoughts Of The Voices

15: Him

I stared blankly at my wife. We were finally married, our families joined as one. A bitter taste was left in my mouth as we shared our vows. Yes, I did love her, I but I also love you. I always have and always will.

Not being around you was torture. My father banned connection between you and me after he found us in bed. You were right, I was being to careless. You were always right, my better half.

“Think of what would happen to the family name if they found out your a homo! Do you have any idea how many sponsor's we'll loose?” Father yelled out, his voice echoing off my room. “Who cares about the goddamn family name?! I'm sick and tired of trying to be perfect.” I clenched my fist tightly.

“I'm the one who has to uphold it in the first place! You barley have to do anything you ungrateful brat!” He swung his hand, striking me on the face. “I don't want this stupid responsibility anymore!” I cried out.

“Your right. You don't have to hold this responsibility anymore. The new heir to the Torres throne shall be your sister, Vin. I'll tell the people you renounced your place. But I still will forbid any contact with that filthy man.” He growled. “You can't do that,” I said “I'm the heir to that throne! You can't have any control over me!” I slammed my fist against the table, shattering it in two.

“I don't want to ruin the family name. You are my son Rox, unless you cross me or try to overthrow me, you will no longer be a Torres. Now, I arranged for you to meet our competitor's daughter, Lilly. And then in a few months from now, you'll marry her, sealing the deal between companies so we can merge.” Father said once more before leaving and slamming the door shut.

I sighed as I tried remembering how your lips felt against mine, or how your big warm hands always roamed all over my body. The feeling was slowly fading away into oblivion. I can't forget you. I don't think I ever will. But I promise you, if you wait, I'll be back in your arms.

I know your hurting while I'm sound asleep with my new wife. It isn't fair, you deserve better, but you've told me your heart only wants me, and I want you, but I can't have you. Now I also want Lilly, I fell in love with her during all those moments we've spent together.

I'm so sorry Robert. I tried. I promised you that we'd get married and have kids and live in a big home. Those promises turn into lies and pain. I just wish, I had more time with you.

Yet, I'm thankful for you coming into my life and showing me the true meaning of love. I'll never forget you, I promise. This is a promise I won't break.

Ever. 

The end.