Chasing Reality

10

I started picking Spencer up at his house before work and dropping him off after. Nothing else was really said about what happened in Kansas City, we have been acting  like nothing happened.

I've become flustered around him, he is also nervous around me.

"Ask her to dinner?" I hear Reid's squeaky voice. "I can barely look her in the eyes anymore, let alone do that."

"Look kid, it's easier than you think. It doesn't even have to be a date. Just friends." Morgan says. I'm back in the same situation I was last week.

They obviously can't see me but I think it's really cute he is nervous. I was worried he didn't feel the same way anymore.

"Whatcha doin?" Rossi says behind me, startling me.

"I was..." I try to come up with an excuse. He peaks around the corner and he sees what I was doing.

"Ahh. I knew something was going on between you two?" He smiles and I sigh in defeat.

I nod, "I mean, I do like him but I'm not sure what's going on

"Morgan said you guys have been sleeping together in practically every hotel we've stayed in." He says.

"What he said that? Has he told Hotch? What context did he use 'sleeping' because I swear it's harmless." I ramble on.

"Mercer!" He stops me.  "I don't think any would would assume Reid would just sleep around." He assures me.

"I don't even know how to explain it. There is actually no words to explain how I feel when I'm around him. And I know it sounds unrealistic but when I sleep, even just in the same room as him... I sleep better than ever. I'm just able to sleep. I can't tell you how peaceful it is." I say.

I look up and realize what I said makes me sound like I'm in love with him. He must think I'm insane.

He just smiles "You know I think someone like you is what's good for Reid." He says before walking away.

Someone like me? I want to ask him what he means but he is already gone. The rest of the day goes by insanely slow. JJ is looking at all the files trying to choose our next case. Reid and Prentiss run errands so I don't have anyone to talk to nearly all day.

When he returned it's about time to go home. I gather my bags and he meets me at the door, we take the elevator down.

"How was your day?" I beat him to the question.

He smiles, "It was alright. Prentiss is a very motivated person so we ended up getting two days work done in one day." He says.

He returns the question to me and I just say it was good.

When I pull up outside of his house he thanks me and gets out, I remember what JJ says and I call after him.

He looks back at me, "Do you want to come over for dinner tonight?" I asks.

His conversation with Morgan really motivated me. Maybe he wanted to ask me to dinner but he just doesn't know how.

His hair hangs over his face as he bends down to look at me in the car.

"Y-yeah. I would really like that." He smiles and I can't help but letting a huge smile overcome my face. "What time do you want me over?"

I tell him around 6 and he nods. He closes the door and waves at me as I drive away.

As soon as I get home I shower, giving my hair enough time to dry. My hair is naturally super straight, most days I blow dry it to give it more of a wavy look. My blue eyes are very light today, I contemplate putting on some makeup but decide against it.