Chasing Reality

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He seems too lost in my eyes to answer.

I lean down slowly, so he has the chance to stop me if he wants to. Though I know he won't.
When our lips meet my eyes close. It was an innocent kiss, no tongue or harsh lip biting. Just a passionate kiss.

The feelings that I have for Spencer I don't think I've ever had before. If been with a couple guys but the relationship was so centered around lust it was never like this one.

The fact that he isn't trying to sleep with me constantly let's me know that he really likes me for me.

I pull away and continue to look at him. He really is just plain beautiful. He surprises me when he puts his here and on the back of my neck and pulls my lips back down to his.

I put one of my legs on the other side of his body so I'm straddling his hips. His lips part as I sit down further.

I take that opportunity to guide my tongue into his mouth. His hands find my waist and rest there while we continue to kiss.

I can feel him uncomfortably shift under me but I use that to my advantage.

I would be lying if I said I didn't know we would end up here. We have both been holding back for a while and it felt really good to just let go.

I was not expecting him to sit up then flip us over so he is lying above me, between my legs.

He continues to kiss me.

Who is this Spencer? To be honest I didn't know he has it in him.

I find myself so turned on and I kiss him back, biting his lip and pulling on it until he's moved impossible close to me.

We stop kissing for a moment, his lips still slightly resting on mine.

He pauses momentarily and tugs at the bottom of my sweatshirt.

I stop for a second, hesitant removing it, leaving me only in my bra since I neglected to put on a shirt and honestly I'm not that upset about

I have to admit, with how nervous he always is talking about sexual stuff I'm surprised about how his body reacts to mine.

His hot breath creating moisture on my neck and he lightly kisses it.

I slightly move my head the other way, giving him more room as he repeats the action multiple times all over my neck.

It's honestly is one of the sweetest gestures I've ever received.

I can't help myself from quietly giggling as his hair tickles my nose.

He turns his head to kiss me again.

The heat from our bodies keeping me warm, though it is quite cold out and we are on top of all the blankets.

I can still hear the storm blowing outside. That combined with Spencer's breathing is really calming me.

"Kathryn?" He calls, keeping his head resting on my chest. "What's happening between us?" He asks, not looking up at me.

I think he is partially afraid to.

It takes me a minute to think of something that sounds right to say out loud.

"Something Spence. Something good." I finally reply.

His arms slide their way under me and I lift up my back a little from the bed so he can wrap them fully around me.

The overhead light is still on but it was have to stay because there is no way either of us are getting up.

Soon his breaths begin to deepen and I'm almost positive he is asleep. His head feels heavier on my chest but it's making me feel secure.